I am feeling lonely again. I guess because I saw his pictures again using my dummy account yesterday. Stop judging. Everyone does it! It crushed me inside seeing him with his friends (who I never met) and with Jolo (Kath's ex-but-still-seeing-each other) add the fact that the person who uploaded the picture has a crush on him.
I'm missing him again and I feel weak. I am not the person I was before. To avoid messaging him, because it's totally pointless, I ran again through my contact list and messaged two guys. The first one was Ivan. Yeah. Why did he cross my mind after what he's done to me? But ugggh. I sent the message anyway. Second one was PJ. I still remembered how he embarrassed me in front of many educated people! I realized, I don't really have guy friends. I don't include my brods and closest guys of course. I mean, guys I can have something. Malice. Lol. You know? I miss the feeling of kinikilig. Yung may malisya. Haha
After a while of contemplating my life on earth, my phone rang. I was hesitant of answering it because the number was not registered in my contact list. I pressed the green button and asked who it was then I heard a voice that sounded familiar. I was really nervous. It was Froi's voice.
He spoke in a very low-tone voice, "Si PJ to". Okaaaaay. BASAG. After all this time I was still waiting for him to do that? Seriously?! Haaaay. I am a self-confessed pathetic!
I was really shocked! Why would he call me? So I just entertained him. Nakakahiya naman sa pagtawag nya. Until we arrived to having a date next month in his area. WTF. Faster than a speed of light! Maybe I am over analyzing things. This time, I don't want to put malice here. Lol. Not him. Not PJ Bautista. Yeah I know. My criteria in finding a guy includes "brainy" but not summa cum laude-class valedictorian PJ level!!!
I am becoming needy again. I don't want to fall back into the old cycle. The problem is, I am too choosy. How will I be able to compromise this? Tss.
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