One day before the graduation day

It would be hypocrite of me if I didn't blog about my graduation day. Yes. The UPLB's 40th Commencement Exercises. It's two years overdue and I cannot let this moment slip away yet I know that the excitement of finally "graduating" is...sigh.. not there anymore.

Of course you can't blame me. I've been working for a year already and I cannot experience what they say every-college-grad-after-graduation-dillema: UNEMPLOYMENT. I've been there. Ha! Maybe, graduating first semester was really God's plan for me. Of not having too much saturation in the unemployment pool. Cool. 

I absent myself for the graduation rehearsals with agenda in mind. First, I will be getting the Tax Refund amounting to Php3800+. Secondly, I will be getting my Transcript of Records that has been in the University Registrar for three months. And thirdly, to get valid IDs from different agencies/units.

Unfortunately, I wasted my precious time. I didn't know that getting TIN ID, employers will do the processing. So void. We don't have taxes. FAIL. I went ahead to SSS in Parian and got overwhelmed by the long queues! After I got the form, which before I got it, I lied by saying that I earn a living doing VMobile. Where the heck did I get that??? I am not really good at lying. I think the teller noticed that I am not telling the truth! So I left hurriedly thinking that when I come back he won't recognize me.

I also have a rush office work to finish. If I only did that instead of wasting time commuting and going there for nothing! Oh well. I can't complain. No regrets :)

So I went home: NGA-NGA! Rested for a while and changed my bag. My former classmate who graduated cum laude texted me informing that 1PM that afternoon was the DAME Testimonial and Prof. Jimmy Williams will be the guest speaker. I got excited though I only got a three from the most favorite (terror) professor in CEM. I wasn't prepared! But I really wanted to go though I have still things to do in my bucket list.

In short, I arrived in elbi past 12PM. Clemente peeps welcomed me with nonstop laughter! One of the most happiest moments of my life! :))))) The original plan was Tandybear will come over my house for us to make white cheese but everybody disagreed so I stayed until the rest of the night.

We had lunch in McDo and they accompanied me to the Admin Building for my check. Unfortunately, my tax refund is a week to process, so another NGA-NGA! It's true. Always use the cash-on-hand instead of the receivables in budgeting or you'll get disappointed like me! Grrrrr!  I was really ashamed of myself! I owe Dayne Php500 for the rush typing job I offered her. :(

After that, we gatecrashed the DAME Testimonial. It was PJ Bautista (last year's class valedictorian) who was speaking that time when we arrived. Tandybear and I were really shy to go inside. We were just insisted by my former classmate. When we were to find our seats at the back, PJ got distracted and noticed me and said hi! Imagine that scene! NAKAKAHIYAAAAAA!!! :(((((( Eveybody was in their formal attire and they were listening. Graduates and faculties. Then, BOOM! Why PJ? WHY???? /// T______T

After Sir Jimmy's speech, we left the event to get my TOR. After there, we stayed in AEMS Tambayan and had fun over Joyce's iPhone 4S. Until, someone mentioned his name. And that he was approaching us. It's Froi. And it's awkward. He shaked-hands with everybody, then when it was my turn.. he demanded doing the gesture with me...grumpily! Grrrrr! As if I wanted to do it?! 

I just watched him. Tandybear greeted him saying that he probably didn't know that she was there. And he got angry! He said things to his sister as if she was not his older sibling! Tsktsk. At the back of my mind, I was really disappointed. He was like that again. Bad-tempered. Disrespectful to his sister. When we were together, I always tell him to love his family most especially his ate who is always there. But now seeing him having fight with my friend over small things.. Seriously? Where're your manners man? 

And he haunted me all through out that afternoon. When we walked to the assembly venue, we passed him. I was uncomfortable. Worse, in our line, he sat near us. What's wrong with him? I can't count how many times are eyes met. He won't make a deal out of it. But it annoys me! Then I realized, I only had two days left to see him...

--to be continued--

Little by little..

Yay! Today I got my first TEV (Travel Expenses Voucher). It's a reimbursement from my previous travels: Pampanga and Nueva Vizcaya amounting to Php3020.00! But honestly, when I first heard about it, I was hesitant to get it. Here are my reasons:

1. When we traveled, I didn't pay any single cent for anything. (Travel, board and lodging, etc.)
2. Besides, I was always full that I can't even finish what's on my plate! (Breakfast, snack, lunch, snack, dinner, late snack) GLUTTONY!!!
3. Other than that, we have tokens (delicacies, bags, blanket sheet) courtesy of the sponsor regional unit. See? You arrive there penniless, still you'll have things to bring home!
4. In the voucher, there are items that I really myself did not purchase/use. E.g. the taxi fare.
5. No matter what they say about it, for me it is still a form of CORRUPTION!

I was enlightened by my office mate. She said that the budget for travel is just being stretched for it to be liquidated. That's why, aside from the regional units that is in charged of any activity, staff receives reimbursements in the form of TEVs.

But still, I am not convinced! Imagine how much money is being used for every travel expense? Oh God! As a newly graduate from the premiere state university, I had inculcated in my heart and soul HONOR AND EXCELLENCE.

And yet after this post, I still have with me encashed the Php3020.00 TEV.

Another milestone.

April 14, 2012.


I got inked. ♥
Finally. I had my long time dream come true! :) 


It's a 2x4 inches tattoo inculcated in my right-side, just under the bra strap--ribs beybeh! \m/
When I showed the artist my design, he asked me twice or thrice where I want to put it. He was shocked and repeatedly asked me if my decision is final. I said YES!!!


He told me that in that part is the most painful area to have a tattoo because the skin is thin and the bones are prominent. I don't care! I want it there. So when the pattern was finished. I removed my shirt-- I was wearing a sports bra as top. 


I lied down in the couch facing left. I was nervous and my feet were cold but I can't turn back. I was already there. Whew! 


Good thing, the music was loud. hard-rockin' I could tolerate the pain. Actually it wasn't painful at all. It's like you're being injected--for an hour! That's it. There was no blood too. I was accompanied by my sis in Letran, Rorie. After a while, I asked her what letter was finished and she said "o". OMG! After she said that, I really wanted to go home! I could already feel the pain of the needle pricking my skin! By the way, the needle is 4 inches long! It was too late to quit and the sense of my tattoo will be void. But after that, I was already able to see what's going on so I just watched the artist how he does it. 


Until I get used to it and be entertained on how he engraved those letters on my skin. I felt numb. I don't know how I could explain it but the pain was like nothing compared to emotional pain I've been through. I know. Emoshit. But that's true. Getting a tattoo is really a self-expression. Now I realized why people get addicted on getting this. It's an art and incomprehensible just between you and the tattoo. 


I just wish my family won't find out. They can't or I'm dead! :p

In memory of Nemo, my iPod.

I'm still in grief over the loss of my beloved iPod. It's five months old and I just realized that I didn't give it any name! Also, I was just recently informed that it's 6th generation--not 5th! See? I am not really techie. 

I am really sad to its loss but something that I can continue with my life like it's nothing. I wish I am like this when it comes to love.. Sigh.

Anyways, here are my realizations after Nemo's loss:

1. When I bought it, I had this gut feeling that it won't stay with me for a long time. Weird huh? Yes. But I didn't expect it to be this sooner! :'(
2. Maybe it's loss is a way of saying that I should pray the rosary instead of listening to worldly music. When I was in high school, going to school, I always pray the rosary in the jeepney. It's been a long time since I last pray the rosary. Add the fact that my favorite rosary got lost. And recently, I just found it. Coincidence?
3. They say that when you lost something, something bigger and better will replace it. Well, in my case, I have to patiently wait..if there is something waiting for?
4. Truth is, I feel kawawa. Nothing left for me. I still have my phone and Nobi though, but my iPod is the most precious thing to me! Nemo understands my mood. It's my companion. It's my confidant. It's my best friend! :((((

Now, I don't know. Nakakawalang-gana na e..

The Day They Took My Life Away

I think the universe has put all its tricks and jokes on me. Today is not a good day. I woke up from a very peculiar dream. It was Dra. Vicky Tandoc! Yes! The Mama Tandoc. Lol. And it didn’t feel right. It was soooo awkward like everything was real. She talked to me to stop pestering his son—in the most awkward way! KDOT. But after that dream, I just realized that I should. I HAVE TO. I MUST DO.

I woke up with the sun exaggeratedly extending all its rays over the window pane and it was only 10 past six am. I wasn’t really feeling okay. I had dry colds. If there is something like that? Lol. I couldn’t breathe properly. I was feeling irate, well up to this moment. I guess because of my raging hormones. I have my period. Second day. Ugggh. It sucks to be a girl! Really!

I tried waking up to my senses and start preparing off to work. When, the maid turned on the radio in to nakakadiring radio program (for me). It’s the show of Charlie and Cassie? Where two DJs debate over a topic and let hear callers’ opinions on air. Today’s topic? Charaaaaan! Sinong mas mabilis mag move-on? Babe ba o lalake? Hoho. IMBYERNA. Then suddenly, I heard Eica’s already in the bathroom. I hurriedly asked her to let me go first since Imma be late. Though this girl is really bratty, Eica understands. She’s acting like a baby not really suits her size—BABY DAMULAG, ika nga. But she’s cute and I love baby-talking. Haha.

Anyways, as I leave the house I always put on the earplugs and listen to my iPod. I listen to RX The Morning Rush all the way til I get to the office. The routine will start differently as today’s events changed everything.

I got on my usual routine bus—Jayross. There were too many passengers so I was seated at the backside of the bus. My strategy every time this happens is to anticipate passengers who will alight at every station and then quickly occupy vacated seat. This plan never fails me. This technique requires keenness, agility and speed. Like a ninja!  So when I was already at the front row in the bus this morning, I was really not feeling “ordinary”. I tried shrugging off this feeling by putting the volume’s up and enjoy the radio show. I put my iPod inside my bag, hanging—just to secure it’s inside.

I was really having a good time since today is Wednesday: songs being played are from the 90s. Oldies but goodies. Til I get to Philcoa... I was preparing myself to alight in Vizayas but because of the traffic jam or I dunno, I wasn’t able to do that in the spot I usually get off. I was furious getting off the bus because I was hitting 8:00am sharp for the time card. I pulled out my earplugs and just placed them over the zipper line of my bag (since the zipper line is deep making a bowl-shape surface). Timely, a pack of men all looked like the typical Filipino workers rushed towards my way getting in, while me getting out. I struggled getting out of the bus because of the number of standing passengers. As I get down the bus and walk across the street, I heard a tumbling sound of something from my bag. I got scared. I think of my iPod right away. As I get my iPod, I only found the earphones. I worried about my iPod though I know it is safe inside my bag. I couldn’t make sure of it because I was in a hurry. I walked as fast as I could to reach to the time card slot and hurried upstairs to the office. As I reached my workstation, I opened my bag and search for the iPod—and it’s not there anymore!

I searched every corner of my bag but I was hopeless. I was teary-eyed. I was depressed but there were no tears coming out of my eyes. My iPod. It’s the only thing I have! I don’t have any luxuries in life but that gadget alone! It’s my everything! It’s my life! I could not afford to buy a new one. Not this time. Sigh. Today, I don’t know. I’m having a hard time for the loss of my beloved iPod. My earphones hasn’t turned one month old! How am I going sustain the long hours of travelling back home or going to the office or to any other places? KILL ME NOW. I don’t want to live in this planet anymore!!!! T___________T

I was just amazed. Period.

Universal 6 Card Spread

Card 1 (Temperance) : How you feel about yourself now  »

You feel a need for harmony and balance in your life and indeed are starting to feel that some peace has already been restored. If you have been through some tough times, such as a break up of a relationship or financial problems, peace will be restored. However if you are still experiencing problems, this is a time for calm, careful control and patience and you will soon have a sense of normality again.

Card 2 (The Hierophant) : What you most want at this moment  »

The cards suggest that what you most want at this time is to have someone around you that you can trust and confide in, knowing that they won't let you down. There are moral issues here, knowing right from wrong, and you may feel that you need some advice or wise counsel from a teacher, priest, parent or someone you have a lot of respect for, in order to help you make the right decision.

Card 3 (The High Priestess) : Your fears  »

You are feeling uneasy and insecure, something in your gut is saying 'be careful, all is not as it seems' - something just doesn't feel right. If so, delay any decisions or actions until you have answered your concerns. If male this could signify a significant woman in your life being a bad influence.

Card 4 (The Tower) : What is going for you  »

Sometimes sudden disruptive change is inevitable, and as painful as it may seem, we come through it a stronger and better person. No matter how disruptive things are at the moment, or if you feel life is really against you, re-evaluate and move on - often a new direction can bring new opportunities you never dreamed of. If you have been planning to move home you will be experiencing setbacks.

Card 5 (Judgement) : What is going against you  »

If you allow fear to stop you from taking a chance or a new possibility then you will lose out. Do not ignore the new opportunities being presented to you - a decision, new job or relationship could change your life for the better. Do not refuse change when change at this time is vital - feel the fear and do it anyway. Outcomes may well be delayed, however this is a time for positive action and not passiveness.

Card 6 (The Fool) : Outcome  »

Open your mind and soul to new possibilities this is a time to realise your full potential, follow your instincts and act on your hunches. A time for spontaneity, fun and surprises. However, be mindful of being too impulsive - your decisions should be based on experience and knowledge of self.

Just Some Cards

Universal 6 Card Spread

Card 1 (The Tower) : How you feel about yourself now  »

You feel that the disruption and sweeping change you are going through, or fear you are about to go through, will be catastrophic. You need to recognise that such upheaval can force new directions that you never dreamed possible. Subconsciously you may have wanted change, but as is often the case, the solution isn't always as we expect. There could be problems relating to your property, or if considering a new property or move, progress will be thwarted.

Card 2 (The Fool) : What you most want at this moment  »

The cards suggest that what you most want at this time is just to be happy, and you are searching for the one thing that will bring happiness. You want a new start but feel unsure of what you want or where you want to go. Romantically you have mixed feelings regarding another - part of you wants to enter the relationship wholeheartedly, part of you wants to hold back. So if you are in a relationship that empowers you, stay, if not it is time to move on.

Card 3 (The Empress) : Your fears  »

You are feeling insecure, perhaps have money worries, as a parent you may have concerns over your children, or perhaps it's an unplanned pregnancy. There are people around you who love and care for you and they will give you support. Try not to be over protective and do not resort to emotional blackmail, it won't do you any favours.

Card 4 (The Sun) : What is going for you  »

The Sun is shining on you, it's your time for success, joy and happiness. You will feel confident and full of vitality. It's a time to celebrate with friends and loved ones, perhaps enjoy a well-earned holiday, a time of pleasure and good news around children or the conception or birth of a longed-for baby. If you are not feeling this way take heart, you will enter this period soon.

Card 5 (Wheel Of Fortune) : What is going against you  »

A run of bad luck here, perhaps already evident or certainly signs that things are not going your way. The responsibility of important decisions weigh heavy with you where there are choices to make. Trust your intuition, and even if you have to make the painful decision to give up something in order to move on, then have the courage to do it. Trust that The Wheel of Fortune constantly turns and whilst it may be against you at the moment it will in time turn and bring you good fortune.

Card 6 (The Magician) : Outcome  »

A time of positive action with great potential, you are full of self-belief and feeling very empowered. It's time to show everyone exactly what you're made of. You will have the ability to think on your feet and The Magician is an excellent omen for success.

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