Of people I met and an answered question :)

I've been very busy these days that I don't have time to blog everything. Okay. Highlights.

Saturday/Sunday-- went to SM Calamba and watched What's Your Number with Jay. Yes. My favorite couzy. :)) Syempre. Libre nya! :D Mind you. He's only 3rd year College pero mas mayaman pa sya sakin! Hoho. :p Sya ang nagiging boyfriend ko. Lagi kasi kami napagkakamalan. Lol.

Uwi sa bahay then went to WalterMart Makiling. Yes! First time ko! HAHA. It's just around the corner. As in. Sumunod kami ni Jay kasi andon daw sila Ninang and other cousins. Katawa! Di namin sila nakita agad. Oh well. That means malaki pa rin ang Walter? Lol. Anyway, we found them in the Grocery Store. Ayun. Halos lahat ng taga-Makiling andon. Lol. Kainis. HAHA :))

Then forever ako nasa internet na nakatulugan ko na. Paggising ko, si Lola nasa room ko na. Shet lang. HAHAHAHA. Kay Jay namang notebook gamit ko, keri lang. HAHAHAHA

Monday--late nagising. Tamad na tamad kasi ako bumangon. Boo me! HAHA. Lunch time alis ako diretso LB. Nagpapasama pa nga ko kay Jay sa QC. Yes. Punta nako sa Katipunan kila Mara para di masyado hassle kinabukasan. And there, hanggang sa ako nalang ang lumuwas. Awa ng Dyos nakarating naman ako. Letse mga tao sa MRT and LRT ang wild! Mauubusan???? Grabehan! Anyway, nagmamadali naman talaga ko pero grabe lang. Baba sa Gateway to watch Real Steal. In fairness, naiyak ako. Lol :)))) Hellouer? Lahat naman ata iniiyakan ko??? HAHAHA. 

Pang ilang movie na namen ni Mara yun? HAHA. Magjowa? Ganun talaga ata? Pareho kasi kami ng kapalaran. Tengene! Buti sana kung mga panget kami??? Tsktsk. HAHAHAHA. So yun, pag-uwi sakto last train. Dyahe lang kasi pinilit ko sya pumunta sa luwag sa spot not knowing pang Elderly and PWD yun. WTF! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. Syet. Tawa na lang kami! :))))))) Nakakahiya as in!!!! 

So we went to their Condo near Ateneo. At yon, bagsak ako! HAHAHA. Badtrip sakin si Mara kasi gawa pa sya ng AVP for her mom's bday.  :p

Tuesday--THE BIG DAY. I went to the National Sectoral Assembly of the National Anti-Poverty Commision as a documentor. Patanga-tanga ko kasi lumampas ako sa Great Eastern Hotel. Hehe. Buti nalang malapit. Lol. 7am call time at yon ako pa nga ang maaga. Hehe. Tatlo kaming housemates ang nakuha ni Ahyel, AEMS din. Hehe. So there, andaming batang nagkalat sa hotel lobby. Sobrang big event pala yun talaga kasi nationwide and per region ang representation bukod sa sectoral. Eh letse 7am, hapon lang naman pala kami kelangan. Pabor! ^^ at the same price. Hehe. Natulog lang kami sa room. 12pm, lunch. Kadiri yung hotel na yun. Nanlilimahid yung mga mantel. Basta. feeling ko sobrang dugyot non. Arrrggh. Walang wala sa Alumni Hostel. Hehe :p

FIRST PERSON I MET. So nagstart kami magdocument sa sectoral. Sa Senior Citizen kami assigned. I was excited before because I have my heart for the elderly. Feeling ko nga nasa Will Time Bigtime kami. Lol. HAHA. So yun, nasa may bandang likod kasi kami kaya medyo naadvise-an kami ng NAPC coordinator na pumunta kami sa unahan. Feeling ko nga galit sya kasi nagdadaldalan kami. Hehe. Eh di sa hiya ko, nauna nako. Pumunta ko sa may sulok at umupo. Katabi ko yung isang matandang andaming alam. Lol

Lumapit sakin si Kaye dala-dala ang mga gamit. Nadanggil nya ng onti yung matanda na katabi ko. At yun, it started everything. 

"I AM NOT A LEANING POST!!!" galit na galit si Mamita. Nagtaray na ng bongga! Eh di syempre todo sorry si Kaye pero ako diretso lang sa pag document. Kebs lang. Maya maya tinanong na ko ni Kaye kung kaninong bag yung inup-an nya. Eh hindi ko naman alam so deadma uli--back to business ako. Ayun. Maya maya pa, naghurumintado na naman yung bruha! 

"Where is my bag?" Tapos turo si Kaye sa baba. Lalong naghysterical ang lola mo! "You don't put my bag there..blah blah blah!!!" Hanggang sa lahat na ng tao nakatingin na samen. Tanginang matanda yon ah-ah!

Biglang butt in ni Dayne. "Hindi naman po ginagalaw yung bag nyo." At yon na. Word War. Lol

Andaming sinabi ng hinayupak pero ang hinding hindi mawawala sa narinig ko eh yung... 

"STUPIDA!" "YOU HAVE NO MANNERS!!!" 

Wow! Who's talking????

Eh putangina nyo po~!

Problema ni lola??? Grabe lang. May panduduro pa sya and everything. Grabe lang. Pinalabas pa nya si Dayne tapos tinawag yung NAPC Coordinator at wag na wag daw kukunin uli si Dayne next time. Tangina! Wagas! Ako eh nangangatog na sa sulok. Kahit hindi ako yung sinabihan eh tangina! Tama ba yon???? Kunsabagay, matanda na kasi. Sobra naman ang bilib nya sa sarili nya kung ganon? Grabe. Pag namatay yon tyak andami pupunta--magsasaya! Lol >:)

Sobrang magiliw ako sa matanda pero wala ko masabi sa matandang huklubang yon. Period.

SECOND PERSON I MET. Sa tindi ng tensyon, mas pinili kong ituloy ang trabaho ko. Hehe. I went in front and wrote everything that was going on. Hanggang sa di ko na namalayan ang oras at nakipag-sub na sakin si Kaye para daw makapag miryenda ako. Habang kumakain, tinabihan ako ng isang babae. Nagpapakwento kung ano ang nangyare. So ako naman, kwento. Tapos yun na. Hehe. Ambakla naman ng kausap ko. Sobrang cool. Sobrang fun! Kinuwento nya lahat lahat. Ultimo love life, sex life. Oo. HAHA. Brief nga lang pero ganon narin. :p Tsaka ko tinanong kung sino sya kasi yung mga matatanda kilala kasi sya. Nakakahiya naman diba? Hehe. She gave me her calling card and then I found out that she is a radio announcer sa DWIZ. Madami ring syang mga raket tapos kinukuha pa nya ko as documentor next time daw na may event sya.. Ansaya lang. At the end of our talk, God is still glorified. :) Kahit gano sya kapilya at ka-luka, practicing Catholic si Meng Canlas :) Grabe. So inspiring! ^^

THIRD PERSON I MET. Pagkaalis ni Ms. Meng, upo naman nitong presiding chair ng meeting ng mga matatanda. Muka syang mabait. Yung mga tipong pastor ganon. Hehe. So yun, nagkakwentuhan nalang din kami pero wag ka! ENGLISH! Hehe. I had no choice but to converse in that way also. Letche! HAHAHAHA. He asked me to rate him how efficient was he as a presiding officer. Wala pako sinasabi, nag 8 na agad si lolo. Hehe. Sabi ko nga 9 eh. He was amazed and thanked me. He told me how he was handling people. Eh walanya naman talaga kasi yung meeting! Ang wild! Andaming gusto! Andami mga sinasabe! He was able to control them. Magaling nga! :D Tapos yun, hindi ko na kinaya. I asked him if he was active in Church. I was disappointed to hear him say NO. Hehe. Muka naman kasi talaga syang pastor eh. Lol. HAHA. He was a Catholic but not practicing. Anyway, Lolo is 82 :) He even told me that he was being presumed as a lawyer. Grabe! So hindi pa sya lawyer???? Eh ano sya??? Hehe. He let me guessed what degree he took in. Wala nako maisip eh. Hehe. Tapos yun. Sinabi nyang...


HIGH SCHOOL GRADUATE.

Hwe????? Eh sobrang mukang marunong si lolo! As in! @______@
I asked why is he articulate and then he told me he was fond of reading books. Technical books on how to speak English fluently, how to write, grammar and he emphasized on LOGIC. Whoa! True that. Kaya naman kasi mag self-study. Lol. Imba si lolo! Partida! Hindi pa sya nag-college nyan ha? He was proud to say he could argue with a lawyer and win! Hoho. That's my lolo! :))) Everything daw kasi is based on logic. On truth.  Tapos yun. Tinawag nako for my next duty. Hehe

AND THEN I MET THE POOREST REGION IN THE PHILIPPINES. After the sectoral break-out, the next part was the regional break-out. I was assigned to document in CARAGA or Region 13. Lucky me I am a Waray  kaya naiintindihan ko sila. Hehe. There was one part of the problem-identifying matrix where you list down priority municipalities/cities of a certain problem or issue. In this region, everything is being listed down. :( Nakakalungkot. Ayoko na sana makinig sa mga sinasabi nila kahit bisaya kasi nadudurog ang puso ko. </3

Unlike the previous grouping, this group is  few. Region 13 is only represented by less than ten people. We were in a dining table and we had dinner together. They were very friendly and they took the seminar seriously thinking of the problems and immediate solutions to those problems. Haaay. Ka-looy.


Before I forgot, HAHAHAHAHAHA. Napahiya nga pala ko. Lol. The person I was referring to the previous post texted  me that day during these activities. He said he just deactivated his account and he was just busy and saying sorry. :)))))) Tengene! Gusto ko nang lumubog! HAHAHAHAHAHA. So there, nabigyang kasagutan ang tanong ko! :"> Hihi. :))))))))

At late ko na nakita sa calling card ni Ms. Meng, sya pala ang CEO ng ABC Productions. Lol :))

Destiny is for LOSERS

I should have posted this last night but because I started the last one with my sorrows, I cut it. Who likes lengthy posts anyway?

This is an old picture of mine way back 1999 or 2000? Basta. I was in the fifth grade when I transferred to this private school in Tacloban City, Leyte from a public elementary school in Sto. Tomas, Batangas. I thought I lost it jurrasic years ago then I found this out together with my old elementary pictures in the cabinet. Why??? Why on earth should this picture appear now????

Why? Because of that boy. He was my first love. Hoho. Oh baket???  When everything was going smooth between us, I left him. It was due to my complicated family situation I had to go back to Laguna without saying goodbye to everybody. My heart is just here.

So, going back. I don't know why we didn't have any communication during those years. I waited for him. I don't know. I just thought that I still have unfinished business with him maybe that's the reason also why I didn't had any boyfriend.

Two years ago while on Facebook, his name just popped into my head. I searched for him and added him on my friend's list. In an instant. he accepted my request and chatted me. It's just so nice that he still remembered me and teased me with him saying that I left him. I also found out that he was with his five-year girlfriend. Then, after that...I met my first boyfriend and never heard from him again.

Last month, when I deactivated my Facebook while sneaking out for an important message, his name surprisingly popped out from the chatbox. He was asking for a favor to like his brother's photo in a fan page. I refused since my account was deactivated and explained why I was online that moment. He was sorry but then I took advantage of the situation and had a short catching up with him. It was fun. We exchanged numbers. We missed each other. I told him everything about him during the days that I was searching for him. I told him he was my first love. I couldn't believe he doesn't know! He even told me that maybe it was destiny that made us ran into each other again.. Hoho

Days passed and I haven't deactivated my account yet because of that important message I was waiting til I received a message from him in FB teasing me that I would deactivate my account? Grabe sya. HAHA :))) And then one day, he caught me online and again, teased me with him asking me on how to deactivate a facebook account. It was also that day when I finally received what I was waiting but he asked me to stay. I couldn't say no. Lol. Since then, we were always online. Namiss ko lang yung uumagahin ka kasi may kausap ka? And wait.. pagkagising mo sya parin. Natatakot nga ko kasi baka wala na kami mapagusapan but no! Forever na kami online! Landi ko! HAHAHAHAHA :"> Imagine? Eleven years of no communication and yet we were still have this connection? Setting aside his now seven-years girlfriend of course! :p He forever talked about how I left him and that would be my biggest regret in my entire life. That I should be the one he is taking care of now and being loved...

Until the third day, he told him about my--our feelings. That I should be careful because he doesn't want to hurt me. Like? WTF. Don't spoil my happiness. I wasn't even there yet. I'm happy. That's it! And then he confessed that he loves me more than a friend but less than a lover. And he chose his girlfriend and he loves her more. ARRRGGHHHH. I said I don't want to hear about that! Of course I knew it. He asked me what about us? What were we then? I said, no labels. I want to keep what we have. I lost him before, I don't want to lose him ever again. And there, feelings "were" mutual. He advised me not to text him. I didn't ask why. I don't want to hear that it's because of his gf. But when I got disconnected during our chat, that afternoon I received a long message from him so worried. I replied once because he was the first one to text. I still respect what he wanted so I didn't bother to lengthen the conversation.

We were sweet for a week. Straight. We also had a pact that we would be meeting each other. This month. Yes. Within the end of October. He became busy with his work contract that our chats were shortened. There, I sent text messages of smiley to him. No words because I still respect his favor. I was shocked to receive a message coming from him saying that he doesn't want receiving texts from me and then he just didn't make himself online just like that. He was the only person after my ex who cared about me. He let me take breakfasts and made me more conscious about my health. He was the only person to stop me from saying bad words and all other profanity. He is my first love and I thought he could be more than that...

Tapos makikita ko yung litratong to???? Seriously????? I searched for him in Facebook again and guess what I found? He blocked me. I'm sure he did that. I know he wouldn't deactivate his account. Sa inis ko, tinext ko sya. One last.

Blair Waldorf is right. Destiny is only for losers.

If someone is dumb enough to walk away, be smart enough to let them go. Your destiny is never tied to anyone who leaves you.

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So this has been a very busy week for me. I spent three days and three nights (Oct.11-14) at the Alumni Center alone. Then timely, the rape slay case of a Comsci student broke out giving me chills and feared me to death. I should be out 10pm on the night of the 13th but I delayed it due to this unfortunate event. I am brave I know. But this really scare me bigtime! Grabe umay ko sa Alumni~ Tanginaaaaaa!!!!

I know I should have posted this those days that I had nothing to do but I don't know. I was just scared and bored that I just waited for the time to tick at 6am that third day. My third night was a nightmare! I mean, I couldn't sleep at all that I was even afraid to sleep. I had a knife beside me in case of any emergency. Then everything ended. I just prayed that everything would be fine and that the sun would rise fast.

It all happened when the night that news broke out, when her identity finally revealed, I searched for her in Facebook and messages of condolences appeared before me. I don't personally know her but... goosebumps! I was moved and really sorry for her loss. I almost cried! Thank God her case has finally been resolved. The suspects were already found and soon justice will serve Given Grace. Such a nice name...

I am really praying for the eternal repose of her soul...

:'|

Not Like The Movies by Katy Perry

Last na 'toh. Pramis!

I'm not yet over him. Sobrang sakit lang kasi for the nth time, ni-reject na naman nya ko. I just want to be cool with him. That's all. Tapos ayaw pa nya? Kesyo busy daw sya at maraming ginagawa at yung nagpadurog na naman sakin eh-- wala naman daw kasing dahilan para mag usap pa kami ng personal. Tangina lang!

Nakakatawa lang kasi it's been seven months already but the pain is still the same. I may not cry that much often but what I am feeling now is just like the first day he left me. He's been part of my successes and he was the reason of my failures (Oo. Sinisisi ko sya!!! Lol). Masyado lang kasi ata ako nasanay na nandyan sya. He was my strength and my weakness. Akala ng iba ina-under ko sya, but he was really the one who took control. 

Umiiyak ako ngayon. HAHAHAHAHHAHA. Punyeta! Ansama nya kasi. Bakit sobrang mean nya saken? Ganon nalang yon? Biglang wala na syang pakialam sakin eh dati rati wala syang ibang inisip kundi ang kapakanan ko. Mahal na mahal ko kasi sya. Sobra. Akala ko sya din.

Alam ko masama ugali ko pero nung naging kami, sobrang laki ng pinagbago ko. Mainipin ako at iritable pero nung naging kami, nagawa kong hintayin sya ng matagal pag may usapan kami. Sobrang humaba talaga ang pasensya ko. Nagagalit ako pero konting lambing lang nya, wala na. Andami kong efforts nun na hindi ko inexpect na magagawa ko dahil lang sakanya. Kahit nga ngayon diba? Magagalit ako ng onti tapos yun, mahal ko pa rin sya. Okay na uli. Kayang-kaya ko syang intindihin. Grabe! Ano pa bang kulang? Ano pa bang dapat kong gawin? Ano bang ginawa ko? 

Ayoko na kasi. Gusto ko pag mamahal ako, isa lang. Ayoko na kasi ng heartaches. Ayoko na namang mag adjust. Masyadong malaking investment ang magmahal uli. At least kung magbabalikan kami, konting adjustment nalang. Sabi sa Finance, the higher the risk, the higher the returns. Eh tangina! Anyare???? Oo. Alam ko marami pang lalake sa mundo. Eh tarages! Halos lahat ng lalaki ngayon puta! Iisa na sila! Pare-pareho. Pang good time lang ang gusto! Wala ng mapagkakatiwalaan ngayon. Kaya ako sobrang nalulungkot kasi ang akala kong sya na, iniwan pa ko. Simple na nga lang gusto ko eh. Di na nga ko naghahanap ng gwapo at macho. Basta matalino, responsable at mabango pwede na. Lol. 

Ang labo lang. Sobrang nalulungkot lang talaga ko. Para sakin kasi gusto ko sya na. Sya nalang kasi. Bakit ba ayaw nya? Yan  talaga yung palaisipan sakin. Hindi ko talaga alam kung ano yung dahilan. 

Lord, please heal my broken heart. Sobrang dami na po ng pinagdaanan nya. Sana po matapos na. I chose to make a decision that is irrevocable. Hope it could really help me. Kasi ayoko na. Pramis talaga! Unfair naman yun, sya masaya samantalang ako, naghihintay pa. 

Pabili nga po ng pahinga!!!

Sobrang pagod na pagod nako. Naiiyak nako sa sobrang pagoooooooood!!!!

T____________T

Putanginaaaaa! Bat ba bida bidahan ako sa pagsali sa fun run???? Tapos umo-o pa ko sa pagsama sa Prelude to Loyalty Day sa Batangas??? Yan tuloy! Arrrgghhhh. At eto pa! Get to gether pa naming mga blocmates sa gabi! IC's tapos 5am na kami umuwi kanina. Oo. Wala ko nararamdaman non. Ansaya saya pa nga namen. Mulat mulatan pa nga ko eh! Pero ngayon???? Putangina to the nth level!!! Sobrang ayoko na kumilos. Gusto ko lang mag lie down. Nakasama pa sa Awarding eh yan tuloy hanggang forever pa ko dito sa Alumni Center! Tapos magbabawi pako sa 11-12. Tarages! Ayoko na talaga! Kung pwede lang umuwi ng c9 ngayon, gagawin ko! Huhuhu. :'(((((

Masaya yung fun run actually. Andaming pagkain. Andaming kasali. Masaya din yung prelude. Andaming alumni na katandaan. Andaming freebies. Andaming yabangan. Nakakatuwa lang kasi yung mga thunders, iba yung alumni spirit nila. Sobrang loyalty talaga sa Loyalty Day.Masaya din kaming blocmates. Lima lang kami forever pero dabest kami. Ibang level ang humor at fun namen pag magkakasama. Kaya pa kami abutin ng alas singko sa kalsada diba? Hehe

Eh ayoko na ngayon. Sobrang damang dama ko yung pagod. After ng bdayan kila Mam Mimi, yung director ng OAR, diretso sa Alumni Center para magintay ng oras para dumiretso sa Copeland. Nag-assist ako sa Registration uli. Charity na naman. Kundi ko lang kasama si Mommy Kelly at Phoebe eh. Umay na nga ko sa pakain kasi forever na yun yung caterer. Yung kinainan namen ng lunch sila din kasi sa Awarding--Chelsea's.

Basta pagod nako. Pagod na pagod nako. Bat ba kasi ako ang naka duty. Andami ko pa aasikasuhin. Pagkatapos talaga nito, didiretso ako sa Vlounge para sa isang massage treat! Tangina lang sa pagod talaga! Nakakaiyak naaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!! T_____________T

Pagod ako. Pagod. Period.

Next chapter...

So, this is it! I will face the world on my own. How am I going to get a job? I mean, a career! I want a decent job puhleeeease?

I was trying to search for jobs online awhile ago but ended up with nothing. Lol. Duh??? CSRs??? Over my dead body. I want to be in an agribusiness industry but there are no vacancies in all companies that I am eyeing.  :( As much as possible I want to practice my profession. I didn't graduate for nothing. (BAYABAS! HAHAHA)

One more thing, my dilemma is where to work. I am thinking of working in Manila but my heart says stay at home. I really am torn. Plus the high cost of living, stress, traffic and all other factors in the city. I am scared actually. I don't know what awaits me there. Dito pa nga lang andami ng dimonyo? Don pa kaya???

Haaaay. I don't know what to do! Tinatamad pa din naman ako. Lol

Anyway, We'll participate tomorrow in the 1st KapaligiRun organized by the UPLBAA. Sakto. Alumna nako. First activity. Hehe. 5Km. For real??? Eh I have something at 10am. Hope I could finish the fun run by 9am so I could change clothes and refresh.

October. My favorite month of the year except holidays of course. It is where all the hard times and good are jam packed.Yung tipong ramdam na ramdam mo na estudyante ka kasi ginagapang mo na mga subjects mo--oh wait, PLANKING pala! HAHA. :)))) Kabilaan exams. Uso kape at lahat na ng energy drink. May contest ng palakihan ng eye bags. During my undergrad years (Yown! Sa wakas! Nagamit na kita! HAHA), I don't know but taking final exams was I guess my hobby. Lol. HAHAHAHA. Proves that I am really a masochist. I enjoy the anguish of mental excruciation. That feeling when you almost give up and cry all your worries out then you'll pass every exam..The fuck! HAHAHAHAHA. 

Yun lang. Not all. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA :|

Eto malupit, nauuna pa mga sem-enders and lahat ng gimmicks before the HELL WEEK.

So before the Hell week is the Heaven or should I say.. Sinners' week. Hoho. Alcohol, fun, not thinking even a bit of acads. Heaven nga diba? Lol

Back to 2007, it was the highlight of my college. That semester I was honored as the first official student scholar by the UP EAGLES Alumni Association scholarship project. Yes. I have good grades then. Until the brods and sisses had this orghouse. We were bonded as in. We drank almost every night. That sem also, I fell in love with one of my brods. My first heart ache. I was staying in Students' Dorm that time but I almost lived in our orghouse. Epic. I drink just to be with him. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. K.

To make the story short, napabayaan ko acads ko dahil sa paglandi. Lol. Idagdag mo pa yung bigla na lang nya hindi pagpansin sakin eh halos MU na kami ganon. So there, I flunked 2 subjects. Math14, MGT111 and I got a conditional grade in Chem15.

Sorry na ha? Weakness ko kasi talaga ang Math. Kahit ano basta may numero. I just couldn't believe what happened in my accounting! Maybe I was really out of focus that sem that I disregarded my studies. Yun. Before the finals of MGT111, AEMS had its sem-ender in Laiya. I was hesitant to go because I already knew what would happen if I come. I also don't have money with me then, but Kuya Ian, the president that time  insisted and promised me that he would shoulder everything basta sumama lang ako. What an offer! So I joined. Also, I said to myself that I already have so much worries and misery. If I fail, at least I was able to enjoy their company and be happy. :)

Three days and two nights in Laiya. FUN! :) And when I took the exam that Monday... Son of a gun! :|

First week of November I returned to elbi to find out my grades.. Uh huh. Probationary.

I knew already but I just couldn't accept it. Idagdag mo pa ang sakit ng puso ko. Acads and lovelife? Not really a good combo. So there, Double-Whammy! Cutting my hair was my outlet. Promise. Ampanget ko talaga after non! If I have regrets in life..Yun na talaga yon! Tengene!!!

Okay. Back to 2009. 

Eto naman.. HAHAHAHAHA. The budding romance with my first boyfriend. Actually, he was my crush since summer pa. Nadevelop ata ako nung lagi akong napunta sa h4 eh dun sila nakatira. We always argue kaya siguro. Hehe. Then I found out July he was courting his batchmate (CY. Lol) eh he told me summer he wouldn't court any girl. /// 

I tried to win him from that girl. :p But I gave up when we had a huge fight CEMplangan time. Petty fight lang yun actually. But I realized that I've had enough. Come sem-ender, Laiya. Part two. :) Di ko na sya pinapansin nun. And tadaaaaah! It worked. He was like a dog chasing his master! :p Effective ang pag bibikini ko. Loljk. :))))))) But no. I shrugged him off.

Since our apartments that time were in the same building (Clemente), we were able to see each other. And since her sister is one of my closest friends I was able to go to their unit and ask for acad matters. (Baba kami, taas sila). I was civil talking to him. I also remembered that the day after that he will return to his hometown for sembreak. So after my business with his sister I went outside to go to my unit. He ran after me and we stayed in the veranda. I could sense that he wanted to say something or I don't know but I didn't mind. His housemate saw us together and started teasing us. I just went straight to our unit because I have one  final exam left.

In our room while reviewing for AENG2, someone knocked at the door. It was him. I smiled. I didn't expect him to be there that time because it was late already. I don't know. All I did was invited him to sit beside me while I am busy reviewing for my exam. My housemate was already sleeping facing the other wall while we were close together leaning the other. And after that night, we were already together. Bow. :)))))

HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA. Wala lang. Ang sarap magreminisce. Ipinasa ko yung exam na yon, mataas pa! Ibang level ang landi na yun eh, nakakataas ng grade!Lol.  After that, wala nako binagsak na exam uli. Gumanda performance ko sa acads. Until yun...that happened.

This year, AEMS will be in Laiya again. I wonder what's gonna happen. That beach is really special to me. It has a lot of good memories. I am really looking forward to another memories worth-remembering. :)

We'll be there on 22-23. It should be our two years together.///

7th Heaven ♥

October 5, 2011

You soooo EPIC! ♥




This was a really loooooooooong day for me!!!




Okay. Of course I was drinking (Alcoholic??? Napadalas ah??? HAHAHA) when I welcomed this day. As I was saying from my previous post, that incident happened. I will no longer elaborate. Period.




So I woke up at 6am then straight to Alumni Center. I've never seen this building full of people before, full of life! The Alumni Center now is super abounding, all prepared for the upcoming Loyalty Day. A symposium on "ALUMNI COPING BEST WITH LIFE AFTER RETIREMENT THROUGH VOLUNTEERISM" at 3pm was held so preparations and others things were all set. What made me excited was the catering service! Lol (PG pala! HAHA)


After my shift at 2pm, I still stayed to voluntarily help the OAR in the said event. I tasked myself in the registration. Ma'am Mimi, the director, was delighted of my simple deed. I really wanted to be productive that day. Until I received a message from my classmate in Econ102. The message says that the class standing was already released.


Gulp.


I just couldn't breathe that moment. My hands were shaky. My sweat was cold. That night before, I analyzed that I was already "graduate" calculating my previous exams and other requirements such as quizzes and exercises. I knew that I already am but because of my third exam, I really don't know. I was not confident enough to say that "I AM ALREADY GRADUATE".


Pssshhh. That third exam. Bat kasi lumandi ako? Lol. I was texting somebody the night before the exam. Of course, same old drama..I underestimated the exam. Akala ko yung usual lang. Kasi take two ko na naman blah blah blah.. Paksyet! Arrgggghhhhh.


I was really down after that exam. Swerte na kasi pag naka singkwenta ko don! Kwarenta lang ata pwede ko itama.Binilang ko na. Eh Putanginaaaaaaaa! The first two pages were like coming from an Exercise!!! Puro Fill in the blanks???? Hello???? Ano to?????


So there I went to c9 still depressed. I was thinking of getting the removal exam agonizing every pages of the syllabus and contemplating each theory and concepts. Then, *TING!!!*


MAY FINALS PA!!! :))))))))


HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.


Grabe saya ko nun! HAHAHAHA. 


And there I was, in my little nook in the Alumni Center waiting for the result of what's gonna happen....


Nobody replied. I texted everybody but I think all them were busy. Jo, my sis in AEMS luckily was there in CEM so I asked her a favor to look for my student number in the list. And she said..


I already passed 102!!!!!!!! :D


Of course I was happy! I was the happiest yesterday! My classmate also confirmed that I passed and exempted from finals.  It was a miracle indeed! She said I got 66% in the third exam! Like WTF! Pano nangyare yoooooon????? HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA


Even without seeing the result with my very own eyes, due to my excitement I already posted about it in Facebook and Twitter! HAHAHAHA. Then I got scared. What if false alarm? Lol. But still I was already in cloud nine and I told everybody in the Alumni Center about it. Grabe talaga yung saya ko non! SOLID! :))))))


WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!! :D


Mommy Kelly (Admin Officer in OAR) texted my teacher, Mam Catelo (her sister-in-law. Lol) that I was really happy of becoming a full-pledged alumna. She replied. She said that the other day when she dropped by the Alumni Center, she already knew the result. She just wanted me to see it so I'll be surprised! She also said that she was very happy for me.


Mam Catelo. She's my teacher for almost a year and a half. Lol. I took Econ102 (first take) last year first semester. I had a grade of 4 but unfortunately there was no removals offered that sem. I don't know WTF was that policy but I wasn't able to make an appeal. My bad. I was already graduating the following sem, Iost in mind. I was too obedient.


So second semester came with 12 units left. Majors plus SP, that was the most smooth-sailing sem for me regardless of how busy and demanding those subjects were. I think i just enjoyed my major. No math and other letcheng sciences. Lol. It was also the highest GWA I got in my entire college partida bagsak pa sa removals. Hell yeah. Nakalimutan ko na may 102 pako putangina! Yes. Underestimating examshit. I thought ma'am would give the old exams. But no! ARRRRGGHHH. Tengene! Alam mo yung feeling na may gradpic ka na sa bahay? Lahat sila excited tapos alam na ng lahat na graduating ka tapos ganon? Ganon ganon nalang?????


T______________________________________________T


I pleaded. Yes. To Mam Catelo. Part two. But she was strict. That time, she was the newly Department Chair of the Dept. of Economics. Haneeep diba? Timing!!!! She said that it was not the first time to happen blah blah blah.. I tried not to cry meeting her because I don't want to be rejected again just what she has done to me last semester. But then at one point, her stoned heart melted. She agreed to give me one last chance if I could gather all other students who failed not later than 5pm that afternoon. So I thank her and rushed to the CEM College Sec's Office.


The whole staff helped me. They are the best university employees! Kuya Alvin, Tita Tess and Tita Neneth! I love them all. My college wouldn't be complete without them as they became my second family in CEM. So that day, they helped me find those people. And just before 3pm, I contacted all of them. :) By 4:30, we were already in Mam Catelo's office.


We were told to take the exam the following day because of me as graduating but we were warned that the exam would be more difficult. So there, I was happy. That week was burdensome for me just that I thought it was the most chilled sem for me..too early to say pala. Yan tuloy! Tanginaka! Forever ako umiiyak, nahimasmasan lang nung araw na yun.


Grabe! Yun lang pinroblema ko! 102??? SP nga di ko iniiyakan? Partida wala pang kwenta adviser ko! Nyeta!!!!


That night, relaxed nako. Medyo tanggap ko na din kung ano mangyayari. Maybe I cried too much that I want to rest for awhile. It was very heartbreaking. All hopes were crushed. And..I never really expected it. NEVER. I studied all the problem solvings and focused on graphs and such..


So the day of the removal of the removal exam came. Lol. When I saw the exam paper.. 


BULAGA!!!


102 items. True or False. LAHAT. 


PUNYETA LAAAAAAAAAAAAAANGGGGGG!!!!


HAHAHAHAHA. Bahala na. :|


So the following day, exam result. Got the exam paper. FAILED. There was a note beside the score. Sorry.


Ang nakakainis, mas mataas pa score ko nung una! Letcheness!


I went to AEMS Tamb and sat there. People coming were already graduating and I said I won't be able to march with them. I was calm and relaxed. Medyo natanggap ko na rin siguro sa haba ng iniyak ko nung week na yun. 


Then I remembered my lola. I called my Ninang Julie (my aunt) and there! I bursted into tears! I cried hard and told her I couldn't make it. I was expecting her to be mad at me but when she said that she will explain everything to my lola, I cried even harder! It was the first time she didn't nag at me. My heart was pulverized. Worse than any heartbreaking mishap in my entire life! I told her  I have no more guts to come home but she insisted. I lost so much confidence and trust in myself. But my family never give up on me. I agreed to come home because they already fetched me in my old apartment. My father was with my cousin, Jay. I barely talk with him. I don't actually consider him as part of what I call family now for some old and many reasons that I don't want to discuss anymore.


Actually this was not the beginning of the so called depression. It happened early in March.You know what happened. Then, I realized how strong I was. Suicide never popped in my head! It was never an option. I realized that these problems were not enough reasons to cut my life. It wasn't that hard enough to waste my life. Kaya ko pa pala! :)


But still at home, I didn't eat. I couldn't. I just stayed in my room. It wasn't the end of my sem yet because I had to finish my SP with its hardbound and other requirements. During signing of my leaflet, I talked to my adviser who so happened to be the director of the Business Affairs Office. I told him everything and begged him to give me any job he could offer to me because I really need it in order to get back my lost soul. Timely, the Alumni Hostel was in need of Guest Relations Attendants. He asked me to send CV and letter of intent. After that, two weeks at home, My cousins tried to cheer me up. I love them very much. Then  I continued my life. After that, I started working. And the rest is history. :)


I met different people who really inspire me and changed the way I look in life. I learned a lot of new things. It proved me again that everything happens for a reason and that good things come to those who really wait. That there are no failures, only delayed success. I realized that one must not wish for what just he wants but wish for what God wants for him. God truly cares. ♥


Glory to You Oh Lord! :)


Oh wait.. This day also was the 7th month of breaking up with me. Honeeeep. Maisingit lang! HAHAHAHA 

Another disappointment in life.

I don't know if I am going to be flattered or be sorry for myself when it comes to guys. Yes. Here I am talking about this nonsense...

Modesty aside, I really know that I am not ugly. Lol. HAHAHAHA. I mean when I like a cute guy or I am crushing on someone (GWAPO.Period), just my luck..likes me back. :p

However, this is not something for keeps. It's like flirtationship la la la...and most of the time it happens with (thanks but no thanks to) alcohol. This saddens me. Even if the guy is sooo damn hot or super duper cute, really bothersome because they all want the same thing. Oh you know what I'm talking about!

PUTANGINAYONGLAHAT!!! letse lang diba?

I don't wear revealing sexy clothes. Just jeans, shirt or blouse. Sometimes shorts but I see to it that I don't act flirty or something. I behave well. As far as I know, HINDI AKO MALANDI. I just don't get it why they always behave the same way towards me. WALANG PALYA! Tarages lang!

ANO KAYO SWERTE???

Or maybe at the back of their minds, I am the lucky one. Tsss. Sometimes, makes me think twice if I'll bite to their forbidden fruits..but. HAHAHAHAHA. 

NO! :|

So I leave them hanging. KTHNXBYE. >:)))

Yes I told myself I would like to have a Derek Ramsay and have fun (#NoOtherWoman) but I realized that I cannot have fun with that thingy..Errr. Basta yun. HAHA. I AM NOT FOR FUN.

Poor me. I think I'll never find a guy who knows how to respect. 

/wrist

Alcohol Everyday Makes the Bad Vibes Away!

I don't know if I will tell about this new guy that I have just met. Actually I haven't met him yet. Okay. Never mind. Hoho (Walang kwentang intro! HAHA)

So after what happened, I haven't stopped drinking. Lol

Last Friday was the last meeting presided by our Lady Chancellor who so happened to be my batchmate. I absent myself from work to be available. And as usual straight ahead to MusicHub! Blue Tempest Tower! Our favorite!

I laughed the hardest as if it was the last day of my life! Pau (my batchmate) never fails to make me roll laughing! It was a jukebox trip that night! Backstreet Boys to Westlife to N'sync to...wait up. Jovit Baldivino! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA :)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

But the bad side of this extreme happiness is when I reach the optimum, the mood suddenly changes like I am going to feel bad and sick. Yes. Weird it is. Worse, I puke all my heart out! Then poof. I cannot laugh anymore, :(

Good thing that night, I was in control. After MusicHub, we headed to our brods' apartment in Umali. Bought a bottle of The Bar Silver. (Putangina! HAHA) I have a 6-2pm duty and it was almost 1am when I tried sneaking out. Hoho. (Hindi pa nga ubos eh!) But of course they won't let me. I just insisted. So Pat (Letran brod) drove me to c9. Me. Staight to bed. PATAY! Haha

I woke up past 6am! My head was like drunk as skunk. My body was feeling weightless. Whoa! HAHAHA.

AKO NA LASHEEEEEEENG!!!


I went to Alumni Center groggy. All I did was sleep. Bow.

And after the shift, went straight to Las Pinas to visit Mara! HAHAHAHAHA.
His brother Job, opened the door with him saying " Hi, may lakad din ako!"
and me ended up saying "Oh? Where 'you going?"..

TENGENE. Sya nga dinayo ko eh! (Syempre bukod sayo Mara. HAHAHA) ///

Meet Job. Mara's baby brother. Yeap. He's only 3rd year HS! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. I know. :| Magagalit sakin si Mara kasi sya kumuha nyan at kelangan nandito muka ng kapatid nya? HAHAHA. Kamukang kamuka nya kasi dito si Froi. Lol. Corrupting minors. >:))))


So there, laslas ako. HAHAHAHA. It rained and all. The Pasta Carbonara was a drawing. We ended up watching No Other Woman. Yessss! Derek Ramsay! Beybeh! *Drooooooools*

Blockbuster. I wonder how many mistresses were watching? Lels~

A Derek Ramsay is enough for me. I won't be choosy anymore. HAHAHA. Ayyyy. No. I changed my mind. I'll be paranoid then thinking if he will be cheating on me or girls will die just to get him from me. Such stress! Also, I prefer to be more presentable than my partner. People's judgment thingy. If a handsome guy's girlfriend is unpretty...bash! At least, I won't be. Lol. Hehe.

Laugh trip! Bahahahaha

After movie what next? Yes. INOM! Lol

We were accompanied by Mara's cousin, Tracky to the nearest (parang di naman sa layo) convenience store. SanMig Light and Tanduay Ice for me. No hard please. HAHAHA. Honestly, I was still feeling dizzy up to that moment. Hehe

So ready to finish the business but the session turned out to be the two of us  (Mara and I) drinking. The boys (Renz, Mara's brother and her other cousins) were busy with Dota. Renz drank a bottle, Tracky was sick. Mara and I reminisced.

Tracky's place was to close so we transferred to Mara's house. It's a duplex by the way. Cool. 8D

Surprise! Job arrived! HAHAHA. I invited him over to drink and he said yes. (Galit na galit na sakin dito si Mara). He was shy, he stayed upstairs. Haha. To complete the night, their sister Cha also arrived at past 2am. Super cool siblings! :) I wish I had many brothers and sisters and you can drink with them! Super duper cool!

We bought more bottles. Mara didn't join us (Renz and Job). Renz drove the van without a license. HAHA. When we returned, the moment I've been waiting..Job's performance! (Keyborads)  HAHA. Fail! He was not able to finish songs that he played. Cha was already drunk from the party and we made fun of her. HAHA. We insisted her to drink one more bottle. Then she put out her project blah blah.. It was like a bomb with the lighting, wires and all! Lol

So fun! It was past 5am just when their father went downstairs for his early trip, we finished everything and head off to sleep. HAHAHA

Morning. Woke up at 10am. Stalked at Facebook (Sige. Nanlait na nga! HAHA) Had lunch at 12. Good food. Swagger mom (Tita Yeye). Best Nana (Their Granny). Cool family. :D

I found a new home. Lol.
Elpi it is! ♥