7th Heaven ♥

October 5, 2011

You soooo EPIC! ♥




This was a really loooooooooong day for me!!!




Okay. Of course I was drinking (Alcoholic??? Napadalas ah??? HAHAHA) when I welcomed this day. As I was saying from my previous post, that incident happened. I will no longer elaborate. Period.




So I woke up at 6am then straight to Alumni Center. I've never seen this building full of people before, full of life! The Alumni Center now is super abounding, all prepared for the upcoming Loyalty Day. A symposium on "ALUMNI COPING BEST WITH LIFE AFTER RETIREMENT THROUGH VOLUNTEERISM" at 3pm was held so preparations and others things were all set. What made me excited was the catering service! Lol (PG pala! HAHA)


After my shift at 2pm, I still stayed to voluntarily help the OAR in the said event. I tasked myself in the registration. Ma'am Mimi, the director, was delighted of my simple deed. I really wanted to be productive that day. Until I received a message from my classmate in Econ102. The message says that the class standing was already released.


Gulp.


I just couldn't breathe that moment. My hands were shaky. My sweat was cold. That night before, I analyzed that I was already "graduate" calculating my previous exams and other requirements such as quizzes and exercises. I knew that I already am but because of my third exam, I really don't know. I was not confident enough to say that "I AM ALREADY GRADUATE".


Pssshhh. That third exam. Bat kasi lumandi ako? Lol. I was texting somebody the night before the exam. Of course, same old drama..I underestimated the exam. Akala ko yung usual lang. Kasi take two ko na naman blah blah blah.. Paksyet! Arrgggghhhhh.


I was really down after that exam. Swerte na kasi pag naka singkwenta ko don! Kwarenta lang ata pwede ko itama.Binilang ko na. Eh Putanginaaaaaaaa! The first two pages were like coming from an Exercise!!! Puro Fill in the blanks???? Hello???? Ano to?????


So there I went to c9 still depressed. I was thinking of getting the removal exam agonizing every pages of the syllabus and contemplating each theory and concepts. Then, *TING!!!*


MAY FINALS PA!!! :))))))))


HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.


Grabe saya ko nun! HAHAHAHA. 


And there I was, in my little nook in the Alumni Center waiting for the result of what's gonna happen....


Nobody replied. I texted everybody but I think all them were busy. Jo, my sis in AEMS luckily was there in CEM so I asked her a favor to look for my student number in the list. And she said..


I already passed 102!!!!!!!! :D


Of course I was happy! I was the happiest yesterday! My classmate also confirmed that I passed and exempted from finals.  It was a miracle indeed! She said I got 66% in the third exam! Like WTF! Pano nangyare yoooooon????? HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA


Even without seeing the result with my very own eyes, due to my excitement I already posted about it in Facebook and Twitter! HAHAHAHA. Then I got scared. What if false alarm? Lol. But still I was already in cloud nine and I told everybody in the Alumni Center about it. Grabe talaga yung saya ko non! SOLID! :))))))


WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!! :D


Mommy Kelly (Admin Officer in OAR) texted my teacher, Mam Catelo (her sister-in-law. Lol) that I was really happy of becoming a full-pledged alumna. She replied. She said that the other day when she dropped by the Alumni Center, she already knew the result. She just wanted me to see it so I'll be surprised! She also said that she was very happy for me.


Mam Catelo. She's my teacher for almost a year and a half. Lol. I took Econ102 (first take) last year first semester. I had a grade of 4 but unfortunately there was no removals offered that sem. I don't know WTF was that policy but I wasn't able to make an appeal. My bad. I was already graduating the following sem, Iost in mind. I was too obedient.


So second semester came with 12 units left. Majors plus SP, that was the most smooth-sailing sem for me regardless of how busy and demanding those subjects were. I think i just enjoyed my major. No math and other letcheng sciences. Lol. It was also the highest GWA I got in my entire college partida bagsak pa sa removals. Hell yeah. Nakalimutan ko na may 102 pako putangina! Yes. Underestimating examshit. I thought ma'am would give the old exams. But no! ARRRRGGHHH. Tengene! Alam mo yung feeling na may gradpic ka na sa bahay? Lahat sila excited tapos alam na ng lahat na graduating ka tapos ganon? Ganon ganon nalang?????


T______________________________________________T


I pleaded. Yes. To Mam Catelo. Part two. But she was strict. That time, she was the newly Department Chair of the Dept. of Economics. Haneeep diba? Timing!!!! She said that it was not the first time to happen blah blah blah.. I tried not to cry meeting her because I don't want to be rejected again just what she has done to me last semester. But then at one point, her stoned heart melted. She agreed to give me one last chance if I could gather all other students who failed not later than 5pm that afternoon. So I thank her and rushed to the CEM College Sec's Office.


The whole staff helped me. They are the best university employees! Kuya Alvin, Tita Tess and Tita Neneth! I love them all. My college wouldn't be complete without them as they became my second family in CEM. So that day, they helped me find those people. And just before 3pm, I contacted all of them. :) By 4:30, we were already in Mam Catelo's office.


We were told to take the exam the following day because of me as graduating but we were warned that the exam would be more difficult. So there, I was happy. That week was burdensome for me just that I thought it was the most chilled sem for me..too early to say pala. Yan tuloy! Tanginaka! Forever ako umiiyak, nahimasmasan lang nung araw na yun.


Grabe! Yun lang pinroblema ko! 102??? SP nga di ko iniiyakan? Partida wala pang kwenta adviser ko! Nyeta!!!!


That night, relaxed nako. Medyo tanggap ko na din kung ano mangyayari. Maybe I cried too much that I want to rest for awhile. It was very heartbreaking. All hopes were crushed. And..I never really expected it. NEVER. I studied all the problem solvings and focused on graphs and such..


So the day of the removal of the removal exam came. Lol. When I saw the exam paper.. 


BULAGA!!!


102 items. True or False. LAHAT. 


PUNYETA LAAAAAAAAAAAAAANGGGGGG!!!!


HAHAHAHAHA. Bahala na. :|


So the following day, exam result. Got the exam paper. FAILED. There was a note beside the score. Sorry.


Ang nakakainis, mas mataas pa score ko nung una! Letcheness!


I went to AEMS Tamb and sat there. People coming were already graduating and I said I won't be able to march with them. I was calm and relaxed. Medyo natanggap ko na rin siguro sa haba ng iniyak ko nung week na yun. 


Then I remembered my lola. I called my Ninang Julie (my aunt) and there! I bursted into tears! I cried hard and told her I couldn't make it. I was expecting her to be mad at me but when she said that she will explain everything to my lola, I cried even harder! It was the first time she didn't nag at me. My heart was pulverized. Worse than any heartbreaking mishap in my entire life! I told her  I have no more guts to come home but she insisted. I lost so much confidence and trust in myself. But my family never give up on me. I agreed to come home because they already fetched me in my old apartment. My father was with my cousin, Jay. I barely talk with him. I don't actually consider him as part of what I call family now for some old and many reasons that I don't want to discuss anymore.


Actually this was not the beginning of the so called depression. It happened early in March.You know what happened. Then, I realized how strong I was. Suicide never popped in my head! It was never an option. I realized that these problems were not enough reasons to cut my life. It wasn't that hard enough to waste my life. Kaya ko pa pala! :)


But still at home, I didn't eat. I couldn't. I just stayed in my room. It wasn't the end of my sem yet because I had to finish my SP with its hardbound and other requirements. During signing of my leaflet, I talked to my adviser who so happened to be the director of the Business Affairs Office. I told him everything and begged him to give me any job he could offer to me because I really need it in order to get back my lost soul. Timely, the Alumni Hostel was in need of Guest Relations Attendants. He asked me to send CV and letter of intent. After that, two weeks at home, My cousins tried to cheer me up. I love them very much. Then  I continued my life. After that, I started working. And the rest is history. :)


I met different people who really inspire me and changed the way I look in life. I learned a lot of new things. It proved me again that everything happens for a reason and that good things come to those who really wait. That there are no failures, only delayed success. I realized that one must not wish for what just he wants but wish for what God wants for him. God truly cares. ♥


Glory to You Oh Lord! :)


Oh wait.. This day also was the 7th month of breaking up with me. Honeeeep. Maisingit lang! HAHAHAHA