Leap day of the leap year

Hi! It's me again. I've been very busy these days. So much in the office, socials.. etc. Actually, I have papers to finish.. Five more regions to go but I just want to take a break and put my thoughts over here..

What's up with me? Hmm.. Very very deep question. As I assess myself, I really don't know what to answer. I guess, I'm confused. Afraid?

Here's the thing. I've been close to several guys nowadays (HANEEEP maka-several! HAHA). I guess it's true: When it rains, it POURS. Oh well. I'm used to it. So where to start? Hmmm...

Guy A. Someone from my innocent days. Lol. He's almost perfect.The thing is. I never met him. Heard it right. We're cyberfriends. And we're from different time zones. How' s that? Lol. But he'll return here in PH, September. Let's just see what happens...

Guy B. Someone also from my innocent days only, more real. He's my fraternity brother and the age gap is not so distant. Hehe. He's handsome. That's what scares me. Lol

Guy C. A friend of my bestfriend. Her boss actually. He's cute. Period. LOL. What scares me is, I know what he wants. And I can't compromise. Exclamation point! 3:)


So to weigh things..Only Guys A and B matter. What confuses me is, what I really want. Guy A is far away but I'm sure he's worth waiting for. Nah. I am not really sure.. Guy B, is just a text away and I can flirt all I want, if only I had the guts to do it. Gaaaaah! I dunno! That feeling when you want to scratch the  itch, but you can't because you're afraid you might get a scar from doing so?

I can't be in a relationship. It's too risky. Too painful to overcome.

Bottom line. I'll end up being alone again and forever wait for that person again. Whoever that is. Fuck you for keeping me wait this long!  

And yes, today is the last day of February. Despite of what had happened, I still have high hopes for my love life this year. :)