Feelings on REPEAT.

He was there again. In my dreams. And it's no any new thing for me. But this time it's more bothersome. I dreamed of him with another girl. His new girlfriend, my dream suggests. When I headed off to Elbi last week, was it coincidence when my orgmates told me about him? My former housemate saw him with a girl as he passed by our tambayan. And she thinks that they have something. I wasn't shocked. I felt something was pinching me. Yeah. I'm hurt. But it was the feeling like I was not able to breathe. Something like being enclosed in a plastic bag. I heard of it last Friday. Oh well I mean, I confirmed it last Friday but the feelings just sunk in today when I woke up this morning. I feel like crying but there's no tear, even a single drop to fall. I don't know. I have nothing else to do. I have no say. I got no choice but to move on and forget about him. This week is his org's concert. I really wanted to watch him perform but I realized I shouldn't. It will just makes things worse for me. But a part of me says I should. Just to say good luck or congratulations. I really miss him. More than anyone else in this world. I can't handle this anymore.