I always have in my blog a year-ender summary, numbered up to hundred. But this year, I was not able to do it. Tinatamad ako eh, bat ba? Lol. So before the clock strikes at 12, I will post the things...haha, whatever comes to my mind.

Okaaay. Ang hirap pala! Sige, para may sistema, by month ang order. :))

JANUARY

• I can't remember how I welcomed the year. Lol
• Busy with SP
• Busy with selling SP products (Yehesss! The ZMJ Enterprises Rennet)

FEBRUARY

• Finished the SP draft under the supervision of Tandybear. (Oo. Wala ko nahita sa adviser ko. AMP!)
• Watched the Harmonya Concert (Stage GF. Lol)
• Unfair FebFair (SP eh. Haneeep)
• AEMS brods' valentine surprise
• Nasurprise ako kasi wala kong surprise nung Vday. Amp. Haha
• Watched Bach to Basics
• Best sem ever since everything was going smoothly. 

MARCH

• Watched the goodbye concert of Sugarfree in Libis
• First. >:))
• Had my first EX.
• My batchmate was named the next Lady Chancellor! :D
• SP Defense!
• WASTED. LOST. BITTER.
• Punched him in the face!!!
• Graduating.
• Failed my Econ101 Removal exam.
• Cryola all-you-can
• Failed the removal of the removal.
• DEPRESSION
• FAMILY is still the best.
• Moving on: Stage 1

APRIL

• SUPER DEPRESSION
• Found a job (Thanks Sir Arrienda)
• Met my Mommy Kelly <3
• First pay!
• Petix! :))

MAY

• Had dental braces
• Movies galore! (Thanks Torrentz)
• Got my passport
• Squatter sa Hostel TROLOLOL

JUNE

• Enrolled the last three units of my college with my own money
• Had my hair rebonded
• Surprise visit :))
• crushin'

JULY

• Chill
• More movies :))
• Submitted recommendations for the management of hostel
• DEADMA LANG SILA!!!

AUGUST

• Finally moved to C9.
• CEMplangan dance rehearsals
• Had my hair colored. :)
• Wildest thing done for love. Lol

SEPTEMBER

• Bitterness at its finest
• Deactivated Facebook account
• Found my first love after eleven years
• Placed 2nd, our Dance entry
• Pinaasa na naman ako!!! ///

OCTOBER

• Best month of the year! :D
• Graduated from college :))))
• First time to join fun run
• First time to attend Loyalty Day as alumna
• Worked as a documentor for NAPC
• Met different kinds of people
• Treat orgmates to SPLASH ISLAND!
• Applying job online
• Got my first job, resigned to previous work
• Met new friends
• Had myself familiarized around Metro Manila
• Flirted with my team leader. Lol

NOVEMBER

• First time to attend a Halloween party. (Company)
• Had difficulties dealing with colleagues and other stuff that are work-related
• Our head count in the office gets smaller
• 11-11-11, I decided to quit
• Bummer
• Bought myself an iPod Nano 5thGen :D

DECEMBER

• BUMMER STILL :P
• Found my faith back
• Realized how enjoyable it is to stay at home. HAHAHA
• Finished American Horror Story Season 1
• Kissed a girl. :p
• First time in Isdaan
• Celebrated 5th Anniv  (TMH)
• Read The Hunger Games
• Started playing Tetris Battle :))
• First time in MetroWalk
• Realized how fortunate I am after all the things happened in CDO, Iligan and other parts of Mindanao.
• Realized that the meaning of Christmas is really in its first six letters.
• First time to not watch any MMFF entry. :p

Feeling ko kulang to. Bitin ang 2011. Hoho. Next year I hope I could write more. MORE GOOD VIBES! :)))

So this is Christmas.. and what have I done?

As I type this, it feels like my head is going to explode. It hurts sooo much. I couldn't sleep early because I have just woken up. I guess it's eye strain. I just realized that I was free from wearing eyeglasses for a month now. Yeah. LIKE A BOSS. I just don't like wearing it. HASSLE. But what will I do? My life is dependent on the internet. This is me everyday. Even though its Christmas and there's so much to celebrate. The internet ate my lifestyle. This is what I did last Christmas eve. I just stayed here in my lousy room, planking in my bed staring at you Nobi. Browsing, commenting repeat till fade.

I just ate a little. It was my second rice meal since yesterday. Is it me alone who cannot eat because of getting full with food just by looking at them or just by smelling them? I know. It's kinda weird. I feel sick. I feel just like when I was diagnosed with anorexia. It scares me. I want to eat a lot, just like the old times when I am at home but I cannot. I am too lazy to get down. I am too cold to move around.

Christmas. It's the birth of Jesus. It's the first time I didn't think of myself. I realized that today is not for any of us but to God alone. I didn't wish for anything. As I say my prayer in the church early this morning, I can't thank God enough for all His kindness. Although I am a bummer now and feels useless, at least I have something I can call HOME. Safe and sound, with so much feasting and celebration. That's why I felt annoyed until now when someone greets me Merry Christmas as if today is my birthday. Yeah. I AM ANNOYED. Specially on Facebook. Srsly? You will greet every single person who's online? Uggh..

I felt relieved when I found out that we are not the only family who do not celebrate Christmas eve like we celebrate New Year's. Since a child, I always thought of this. WHY NO CELEBRATE NOCHE BUENA? While our neighbors have videoke and fireworks and everything. But as time pass by, I just got used to it. Christmas, Javier style, celebrates it in the morning just right after we have heard mass. Children will come to our house with their parents asking for Christmas treats. I remember when I was younger, only relatives visit us. But now, Mother of God... WHO THE HELL ARE THESE PEOPLE??? But still, giving is the essence of Christmas, so yeah. Merry Christmas!


Half of the day, I spent it in Manila. Jay and I accompanied Ninang Paula to NAIA3, then straight ahead to Glorietta to treat ourselves. Unfortunately the malls will open at 12. It was 11am when we got there. I was freaking hungry so we ate to somewhere available: Luk Yuen. Ugggh. We should have went home earlier instead. Pffft.

And when we arrived home, I was really sleepy. But when I went here to my room as I opened Nobi, all my senses got back. So there. I was trolling Christmas day. Then Botchog came and I was really surprised! And then I told her about my iPod Nano5, selling it. She was decided to buy it right away. I was just joking but she was damn serious. And then Jose Rizal came through our terrace. And we got pictures. And then they left. And I fell asleep. Then I woke up, with this head, screwing!  -The End-

'tis The Season To Be Jolly ^_^

December 21, 2011

A Day of Happiness. Every year, our family goes to some place to celebrate Christmas. This year, we had it earlier and sadly we were few. Only four of us. Any, it was fun! It was my first time in Isdaan, a Floating-Resto in Calauan, Laguna. I was shocked because I thought it would be today. I had to go to resort later that day in the afternoon for my batch in Soro to celebrate our fifth anniv. I quickly packed my things and off to go. Kuya Paolo was not available as well as my brother. Tita Marie was nowhere to be found. Also Jojo. Lola refused to go with us. She prefers to stay at home actually.

Love these Angry Birds. Muntik nga lang ako makita. Lol

This is how we roll! \m/

Maliligalig! :p

Define SUMPTUOUS. For only Php600! :))

Imma try this! TACSIYAPO!!! >:))

I didn't go with them to SM anymore. So they dropped me off in a place where we found love. Chos!

Oh hello sisses! ♥

Coz I miss you soooo much Beshie! :*

Batch Maingay? Pinakamalupit I guess. >:))

Overflowing food, booze, fun, games, laughs. It was nice reminiscing! Happy 5th TMH'06!  ♥   ♥  ♥

And whatever happiness I am feeling, I still feel empty. Because I know, you are that one piece missing... ///

T__________________T

Susulitin ko na ang kalungkutan ko. Ayoko namang salubungin ang taon na ganito, baka malasin ako.
Sana maging okay lahat. Magkatrabaho nako. Maging busy. Para wala nako masyadong iniisip na kung ano. Ang sakit na kasi sa puso. Umiyak na naman ako kahapon buti nalang madami akong kaibigan. Syempre libre na naman ako. Edi ako na nabubuhay sa libre. Ilang araw ako nagstay sa Elbi last week simula concert ng Choral Ensemble hanggang Sunday morning, pamasahe lang papunta gastos ko. Lol. Atsaka syempre yung ticket ng CE. Ang arte ko na naman. Ayoko na nga. Bukas magiging masaya na naman ako. Fifth anniv ng Take My Hand! ^^ Mamamatay na naman ako sa kakatawa! Okay. Napakarandom nito. Basta. Wala ko masabi. Di ko madescribe kalungkutan ko talaga e. AMP. :(

Utot ng Utak Bilang Sawi Ako.

Namimiss na kita. Pero yung miss na tolerable. Hindi na kaya ng dati na nagffreak out nako para lang makita ka. Nakakatawa nalang tuloy. Pero gusto kitang makita. Gusto kita makausap. Gusto ko makakwentuhan kita. Yung mahaba. Yung parang dati. Kahit mag-aaway tayo, pero ang totoo hindi naman talaga. Gusto kitang makatabi. Gusto kitang mayakap. Gusto kita maamoy. Yung kili-kili mo na nakaka adik. Kahit sobrang payat mo, pag niyakap mo ko pakiramdam ko safe ako. Walang makakapanakit sakin. Wala kong dapat intindihin o alalahanin. Kelan nga ba tayo huling ganito? Hindi ko na maalala. Hindi ko na matandaan. Kapag nga iniisip ko paano tayo nag-aaway dati at pano tayo nagbabati, walang tumatak sa isip ko. Pakiramdam ko sobrang bilis ng mga pangyayari saten. Parang ang iksi ng isang taon at apat na bwan. Namimiss ko na ang boses mo lalo pag tatawagan mo ko. Dati rati halos araw-araw mo kong tinatawagan. Lumalaki ang bill mo nang dahil sakin pero wala akong narinig sayo. Nag-Globe ka pa nga para lang matext kita kahit yung Smart mo parin naman ang pinangrereply mo. Lahat ng gusto ko sinunod mo. Kahit sobrang moody ko. Namimiss ko na ang mag-jam tayo. Kahit na paulit-ulit lang ang tinutugtog mo. Kahit na hindi mo tinatapos ang mga kanta kasi hindi mo saulo. Namimiss ko yung kinakanta mo sakin pag matutulog nako. Yung Pangasinense na kanta. Kahit wala ka sa tono, ansarap parin sa tenga. Namimiss ko yung lambingan. Kahit na alam ko na sa totoong buhay pag may narinig ako ng ganon din ang ginagawa eh mabubwisit ako. Namimiss ko yung paghalik mo sakin sa noo at paghawak mo sa pisngi ko. Hindi ko alam kung bakit pero kinikilig ako pag ginagawa mo yun. Namimiss ko yung pag hahawakan mo ang kamay ko habang naglalakad tapos aalisin ko kasi nagiinarte ako. Hahawakan mo kasi ako sa bewang na mas gusto ko na ginagawa mo. Namimiss ko yung pagdaan sa may basang part papuntang Clemente. Bababahin mo kasi ako para lang di ako mabasa ng tubig kanal.Namimiss ko yung pagkain naten kung san san kahit mahal mapasaya mo lang ako. Namimiss ko yung pagsasabi ko sayo ng kahit na ano. Andyan ka lang para makinig at iyakan. Andyan ka para patawanin ako. Hindi ko nga alam e. Hindi ka naman nakakatawa kung tutuusin pero kaya kong makasama ka buong maghapon sa usapan lang. Namimiss ko yung ganun. Namimiss ko yung dating ikaw at ako. Pero alam ko pag sinabi ko to sayo, pag hinanap na naman kita, magagalit ka. Ibang-iba ka na. Hindi na ata talaga kita kilala...

That awkward moment when you see your ex and you are wearing "Looking for Mr.Right" statement shirt in your reddest bitchy lipstick

And it doesn't feel right. I was with Mamuds awhile ago in SM Calamba. We were in The Old Spaghetti House. The desserts were just served when I heard a familiar sound. I was just suspicious. I knew it was them. And to check it, POSITIVE! HARMONYA was playing in the activity area. I rushed to see if Frog..I mean Froi was there. And POSITIVE. He was in the middle.

Since then, my heart beat faster. I was shaky. My whole body was! Weird but it was just it. We rushed to finish eating to still watch them play. Haha. We were on the side at first. But when the people were moving, Mamuds just pushed me at the center. Yes! Just in front of him! >:)))

IKR? Bitchy me. HAHAHAHA. Tignan ko lang kung makatugtog ka ng ayos! >:p

And he glanced at me once in a while. Tibaaaaay! Kung ako yun walk out nako. Di nako makakakalabit ng kwerdas! LETCHE!!!

Then all of a sudden I heard someone shouting.. "FROIIIIIII....."

I looked at back and surprised to see my batchmates in Soro! HAHAHAHAHAHHA. FML!!!
I chose the date with Mamuds since she invited me earlier. My batchmates watched a movie and they bullied me when they saw me at that spot!

Wala na naman ako nasabe! Ako na barado! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. Hindi ko naman talaga pinlano ang lahat!!!! Tanginalang eh!

And then their performance ended with me still defending myself to my batchmates. Mamuds told me he was looking for me after the performance. Ewan ko kung totoo!

But when we were about to leave, I waved at him and said goodbye. He waved back. I was happy.

Up to this moment I am still nervous. Just weird. Damn!

Christmas Wishlist 2011

Okay this will be in random order. I'll just put whatever pops in my head.

• The result of my application.

                    I just really need it too bad whatever it is. If No, okay. I'll move on. If Yes, happy me to start 2012!

• Revlon Red Lipstick

                    Mamuds (Che-che) promised me this. And she will get it for me..TODAY! Yay! :D

• Sennheiser Earphones or Philipps In-Ear Headset

                     I really want!!!! For my iPod Nano5! Gaaaaaaah! @_@

• iPhone4 or BB phone

                      I'm actually contented with my Nokia phone but if you insist, Thank you! I am a very good receiver! ^__^

• Capdase Watch Strap

                       White will do! Or blue, black or yellow! Or all of them! ^___^

• UP Jacket

                         I never had one. Please give me! Lol

• Katy Perry Concert Ticket

                         I just looooove this girl! And I really want to watch her concert next year in MOA Concert Grounds! @_@

• Clinique Happy Perfume
• MAC Make Up
• Super duper soft cuddly pillow (Yung malaki!)
• Running Shoes Size 8

There. I can't think of anything else. I'm just being realistic. Lol. What Mamuds took so long? Ugggh. We should be leaving nao! :| Kthnxbye.