Rain makes you realize things.

I want to go home. The rains these days made me realized things. Many things.

1. That even if how safe I am here in the city, I still wanted to be in my old ancestral home with my "family" in Laguna. I'd rather stay in our house even if it's dripping wet all over the place due to inferior ceilings and roofs. 
2. That even if our house  is almost rotten, it's a Wi-fi hot spot and you will enjoy watching on an LED TV with almost all channels.
3. That even if you got money in the bank or even at hand, your money is useless when their business is closed. Eat your shit!
4. That when you can't decide on what food and where to eat, some of our countrymen do not know where to evacuate from the flood, if they can be rescued from their rooftops or if they can still survive at all.
5. That all you can do is wait and pray for the rain to stop.
6. That even clouds pour heavy rain when it cannot handle the weight anymore.
7. That even for days and nights of rainfall, the clouds can still pour heavy amount of rain without getting tired. Hindi nagsasawa. Hindi nauumay. 
8. That it can't rain forever. Sun will soon rise.Just like in life. There are sad times. There are happy ones.
9. That even if how devastated Metro Manila is, Filipinos can still find humor and laugh.
10. That we only share one planet. The trash of another will affect everyone in the end. 

It's raining and I'm all by myself.

I just want to cuddle. I just want more hugs. But how could I possibly do that? I bought another pillow! For my feet. I already have the hugger-type but I am dissatisfied. These times, its sucks to be alone. These times, I'm not just alone but I am lonely. These times.. I miss you.