Happy Birthday?

Looking back at my previous birthdays, I was excited preparing them. After graduation, I had this annual celebration of my birthday at home. I invite few friends over and let them mingle with my closest relatives.

But this year is different. Despite it's my 25th, I don't feel any excitement at all. Ever since my boyfriend went to Australia, my happiness has gone a bit. My lifestyle has totally changed! I used to be an outgoing person but now I am only at home during weekends. I merely go out to see movies nor at least see my friends. No more weekend gimmicks. No more beers and late night chats. NOT. SO. ME.

I had this feeling of guilt when I am having a good time with other people. I don't know. I don't even "enjoy" the moment. It's still incomplete.

Maybe that's human nature. We can never be contented. When I was with boyfriend, I used to crave for my "freedom". But now I have ALL the time, I dunno. I just don't feel it.

I need to spice up my life. It became soo boring. As much as I wanted to go out or plan travel, it just becomes luxurious and I just left being broke. So might as well, stuck myself at home. And not to disregard so much bills to be prioritized. Whew! Poor me!

Quarter-life crisis? Please Lord show me enlightenment. Huhu