Shaky.

My boyfriend is a health buff. He always goes to the gym, run for almost 21K every day, do curl ups and use their stationary bike aside from playing basketball. 

Yes he's a nurse. An eight-hour duty in the hospital is not an easy task. Most of the time, he gets to work for more hours because his work requires him so. 

Now, with our set-up of only meeting during weekends and with unfixed time for communication, add the fact that he is not that expressive and sweet, how can we survive?

I'm trying to be more understanding. I'm trying hard to make us work. We're both busy but sometimes I also long for romance and time with him. But yeah. It can't be just like that.

I don't know how far this can go? To be honest, I can really live on my own. I don't really need a boyfriend. Having someone to care for sometimes makes me paranoid and that's not healthy. Add the fact that I have a low self-esteem. I have so much insecurities. And then her first cousin was crowned as Bb. Pilipinas-Universe 2013! Great. 

I've already met her closest family members. I think he's sincere but at the end of the day, I don't have peace of mind. Whenever we don't get to talk on the phone or exchange messages, I always have doubts of his fidelity. I have an end in mind that he will cheat on me. So I am prepared.

Just what I told before, I just go with the flow. If he is not the right guy for me, at least I will not be that hurtful. 

But every time he gets to remember me, it is always special. I always look forward the weekends because of him. Five days from work is less than two days spent with him! I've never been this happier. And I've never been this understanding. 

I may find this set-up tiresome at times, but with the scenario of us being together, so much worth it.