Tarot check. :p

Mwahahahahaha :)))))

Universal 6 Card Spread

Card 1 (The High Priestess) : How you feel about yourself now  »

You are very aware of the feminine power within, intuitive and conscious at a spiritual level, looking for guidance and answers, a secret to be revealed. You desire a wise guide to help address your questions, and your intuition is just that. If you are male the appearance of The High Priestess can represent a woman who you care for very much and who truly inspires you.

Card 2 (The Chariot) : What you most want at this moment  »

The cards suggest that what you most want at this time is success, to win and not give up the fight. You are successful and assertive in most things, or if you haven't quite got the success you want, you will get it. This is a time of movement and change - expect a journey relating to work, or if you want that car you've been looking at, go get it.

Card 3 (The Fool) : Your fears  »

You are afraid of making the wrong decisions. There is a warning here that fool-hardy, impetuous actions could lead to major problems. Perhaps you feel that you don't have control over a situation, either personal or professional. You may feel unable to complete a task or stay in a current relationship and fear the consequences of your decisions. Perhaps you know deep down that what you want isn't really such a good thing.

Card 4 (The World) : What is going for you  »

Success, fulfillment and conclusion are near at hand - the successful outcome to a venture, satisfaction in a relationship and efforts rewarded. It is a culmination of events and indicates material wealth and greater spiritual awareness. You may choose to buy that dream house or a wonderfully fulfilling relationship is on offer, enjoy!

Card 5 (Temperance) : What is going against you  »

Life will seem hectic and full of challenges and you will find it hard to have the right perspective on things. You may have a rival in love or at work, and if so, question whether that person or situation is really right for you. This is a time for being calm and patient and life will soon have a sense of normality again.

Card 6 (The Emperor) : Outcome  »

Expect success and achievement of your goals, this is a time for fulfillment of your ambitions. If you have placed your trust in your father, husband/partner or a man of significance in your life, they will come up trumps for you. If you have been the victim of ill-will don't worry, you will win in the end.

Ang gulo.

I am lost. Seriously. I need inspiration. It's my seventh month in the office and I'm getting bored with the things I do here. Everything is routinary. Yung tangina gigising ka ng Lunes tapos in denial ka na Lunes na talaga. Kaya ka papasok para hintayin ang Byernes o kung papasok ka, para sa sweldo. Ayoko na talaga! Nakakaiyak! Tapos pag Friday, mangangarag ka kasi ang onti ng bakasyon. Isang kisap mata lang, Lunes na naman!

I know this is not healthy anymore. Pinipilit ko nalang yung sarili ko dahil wala naman ako ibang gagawin plus  iniisip ko nalang ang dormmates and officemates. But I know, I am not enjoying any longer. I am not happy with my work.

So other than that, eto na naman ang problema ko. Ulit ulit nalang. By the way, mas feel ko pala magblog ng ganito: para ALL out! Haha. 

Nagparamdam sakin yung brod ko after 2 years! Imagine? 2010 pa yung huling communication namin tapos mangungumusta out of the blue? I know something fishy is going on. Hindi naman sya ganito. At alam ko na syempre yung gusto nya. Pero medyo engot din ako kasi inentertain ko parin sya. So yun, agad agad siya nakipagkita sakin. Ewan ko rin bakit ako pumayag. Lol. 

Wala syang sinabi kunsan kami magkikita. Tapos nung malapit nako, saka palang nya sinabi na sa apartment nalang nya ko sya puntahan. Hindi naman sa madumi ang isip ko, pero alam ko kasi may iba na syang binabalak. Kitain ko nalang daw sya sa Fifth. 

Syempre medyo nagulat ako. Kasi si ex ay sa Fifth nakatira. Yun pala sa tapat lang sya. Pagdating ko, Andun nga yung Innova sa Fifth at sinundo nako ng brod ko sa tapat. Kinakabahan ako kasi baka makita nya kami. Sa lahat kasi ng lalaki, yun yung pinagselosan ng ex ko. Hindi ko alam bat ko pa sya naiisip sa panahong yun. 

So yun, pagpasok ng apartment, diretso kami sa kwarto. Kinakabahan talaga ko kasi anu namang gagawin namin dun eh kaming dalawa lang yung tao. Buti nalang may TV. Awkward din kasi imagine? 2010? Ampetsa na ngayon? Makakaconnect pa ba sya sakin? So since malaki yung room na nakalatag lang yung beds, dun ako sa kabilang side. Dulong dulo. Haha.

So ang nangyari, nagkwentuhan nalang kami at nagtake out ng McDo. At kwentuhan pa rin. Pero kung tutuusin, kung malandi landi lang ako, pwedeng pwede e. Parehas na "raw" kasi kaming single. Pero yun. Nag-alas singko, nga-nga! Haha. 

Tapos yun, umalis nako para sa 5:30PM mass. Hindi ko rin actually alam kung anu magiging reaksyon ko sa walang nangyari. Lol. Yung totoo kasi, tarages. Tigang na tigang nako. I need tongue exercise. Lol. Baka hindi nako marunong. Wow. Hahaha.

Isang taon din yun. Lately nga, yun ang pangarap ko. Tapos nung may chance, wala naman ako nagawa. Hindi ko rin pala talaga kaya. Reserved parin pala talaga ko. So lahat ng mga ambisyon ko lately eh kathang isip ko lang. Duwag na duwag naman ako pag andyan na.

Naisip ko rin sya. Ano kaya iniisip nya sakin? Malamang badtrip. HAHAHA. Eh kasi pangatlong "attempt" na to. Lol. Eh yun. Malas lang. Wrong girl. 

Sakto lang sa homily ni Fr. Thor. Tsaka hindi ko rin pala kakayanin kung magsisimba ko eh ang naughty ko? Sa totoo lang, ayoko na magsimba ng 5:30 kasi lagi rin nandun si X. Buti nalang wala sya. Pagkatapos ng misa, palabas habang nagkkwento ko sa friend ko, natigilan sya. Ayun. Nasa harap na pala nya kami. Wow lang. 

So eto ang dilemma ko. Ang gulo ko. Hoho. Baka siguro kelangan ko na talaga ng boyfriend? Hanep. Maisingit lang? Haha. Kasong walang wala e. Kaya mas gusto ko nalang sa bahay. Masaya pa kami ng mga pinsan ko. Kesa yung malayo ako sakanila at kung anu ano naiisip ko..

Rain makes you realize things.

I want to go home. The rains these days made me realized things. Many things.

1. That even if how safe I am here in the city, I still wanted to be in my old ancestral home with my "family" in Laguna. I'd rather stay in our house even if it's dripping wet all over the place due to inferior ceilings and roofs. 
2. That even if our house  is almost rotten, it's a Wi-fi hot spot and you will enjoy watching on an LED TV with almost all channels.
3. That even if you got money in the bank or even at hand, your money is useless when their business is closed. Eat your shit!
4. That when you can't decide on what food and where to eat, some of our countrymen do not know where to evacuate from the flood, if they can be rescued from their rooftops or if they can still survive at all.
5. That all you can do is wait and pray for the rain to stop.
6. That even clouds pour heavy rain when it cannot handle the weight anymore.
7. That even for days and nights of rainfall, the clouds can still pour heavy amount of rain without getting tired. Hindi nagsasawa. Hindi nauumay. 
8. That it can't rain forever. Sun will soon rise.Just like in life. There are sad times. There are happy ones.
9. That even if how devastated Metro Manila is, Filipinos can still find humor and laugh.
10. That we only share one planet. The trash of another will affect everyone in the end. 

Birthday bucket list

I have seventeen days left before my teens ends. Chos! I can't believe I am turning 23 already! Time really flies so fast! Okay. Since it's 2012, I'll have my bucket list of wishes. For my birthday and for.. if it is really the end of the world. Lol.

1. iTouch- Well, I am just waiting for it to arrive. My Kuya Ian promised me that he will replace my "lost" iPod with this. Haha. Lucky me! Can't wait~
2. iPad- Okay. I'm getting addicted to Apple products. I still have my Nobi but it's bulky for me. Aside from the fact that I just use it now for internet and movie watching. I still think it's better if I have a tablet for convenience. For this, I will ask my aunt in UK to get me as a present (birthday and Christmas since she will come home at the end of this year). I still think that this is too much to ask for one occasion. *crossed-fingers*
3. Blackberry phone- Again? Haha. But now, I realized I need to get connected online. I feel primitive without getting any information from the outside world. Just like when Dolphy died, It's like I was the last person on earth to know! How awful! To get this, I will buy it for myself. Again. Lol
4. The Fault in Our Stars- Gaaaaah! I love John Green!!! I just finished the Looking For Alaska that I bought a month ago and there's a preview of this. It left me hanging! Why did I not finish it sooner? It was a great a book and The Fault in Our Stars is (what they say) the best! I asked my batchmate to have this as her gift for me! Hoho.
5. The Holy Bible- I just feel the need of getting one. I need divine intervention in my life right now.
6. Another Tattoo?- I dunno. I also feel like getting one. Lol. Let's see.
7. New hairdo- I want my hair dyed. For the haircut, I'm still thinking of what style. If I'm going to have it short or what.. Probably next weekend! Yay! :D
8. A trip outside the country- An Asian getaway! Yes! Thanks Nanay Dada! Can't wait to see you again! :))) Fourth quarter of the year is just around the corner...
9. Local trips- Let's give this to DA. It's their job! Hoho
10. Birthday sex- JOKE! I can't think of any. Well, I can get one, if he's too hot to handle, I might. OMG! What am I talking about! I am insane! O.o

So there. 9 of them! :))) I have until December 21, 2012 to complete this birthday wish list! See? My list is SMART. (Specific, measurable, attainable, realistic and time-bound! :D) C'mon 2012! Bring 'em on! Ha!