Choice.

My mind has lot of thoughts and I can't decide what to write down. Hmm..

Okay. See, my Kuya Mike and I are not in good terms.. again. We had a cat fight two weeks ago. The cause: MINIMIZING THE VOLUME OF TV. Which is a very serious matter. Right? I deserve all his nags, insults and rage for this really BIG issue. Fuck.

After a long time, I cried again. It was a good cry actually. A relief. I think it's really healthy for us to cry once in a while so we can put out all the bad vibes and burdens we are carrying. Thanks to Jay even if he's in Malaysia who gave me a Facetime call and Janno who called me on the phone. 

And for the nth time I received a shotgun proposal. Chos. I mean, why? Don't men nowadays know how to slow things down? And for every situation like this, why am I the one who's always saying sorry. Why can't I be MEAN. Tangina!

The people around me are excited for my love life to bloom. Of course, I am more excited! But, after what happened, I just proved to myself that I really don't need to be in a relationship right now. Or sooner? Hehe. No it's not about my EX. Though I watched their concert with Janno. It's nothing. Plus he's grumpy and unpredictable again. It's just that I only want to think of myself. Taking care another person is too hassle for me. See, I am contented with being single. I've been single for two years this coming 5th and I'm used to it. Plus men attempting are ALL the same. Jerks. Jerks everywhere.

I proved to myself that being single is really MY choice. Pwede maging choosy? Kahit minsan? Lol

Yes. This is me :)

Over a year working in the Department of Agriculture makes me mature..I think. And by maturity, I mean being less sensitive and emotional. I became independent and more responsible.

How did I know? Well, compared before, I tend to get jealous and onion-skinned when my friends had hang outs that I were not able to join them. Tampururot ako sobra! But now, I think more of practicality. Sometimes, I think not to make friends with them at all. Lol.

See? I realized that you don't really need many friends. You just need true friends. Even if how few they are! And I really appreciate my friends who can understand my shortcomings and low-profile lifestyle. Chos!

I am not really grandiose. Okay, except to food. But hey! I am not really into buying branded clothes or shoes or bags!Sobrang kuripot ko pala talaga! Haha. Why am I noting all of these? It's because I am turning 24 already and I do not have savings yet!!!

It kills me knowing I've been working for more than a year now and I haven't invested anything! Impulsive gimmicks and hangouts are the reasons so I should lessen them. But then, I realized, planned ones are more expensive! Huhu T________T

So what should I do? Rawr! I have a goal this year to have at least PhP 18,000 by December! Luckily, I do not have my salary in the whole month of January. Talk about savings, I am but broke!!!

At least, I am learning the art of saying NO. It helps. Really. I still go out though. :p But I know how to filter them.

I am just delighted by how I handle things now. Yeah. Less drama. I am loving my life despite how much I lack financially, socially and romantically. Lol. It all boils down on how I view things. How I am  not affected by outside forces. By not being lured by social media and networking sites. And not affected by peer pressure. So old for that! Haha