Relationshit.

Who's naive? I don't want to share all my thoughts anymore. Because when I do, I become comfortable that the person will always listen. I start trusting the person. When trust is earned, I start caring. I don't want to care anymore. Because when I start caring for someone, that person becomes special. And when the person becomes special, I start longing for more talks and become dependent that the person will always be there. When I become dependent to that person, I get attached. I become clingy. I start to ask for more time. That's where commitment enters. It complicates everything.

Even if two people's feeling is mutual... Yeah. Commitment ruins everything.

Not like the movies.

So, what do I do with my life now? I dunno. Am I happy? Perhaps, yes? YES. Definitely. But somehow, I am confused. Someone is finally making me happy. But something is holding me back. I want this to be perfect. Special. He did things I wish to be treated.  He made me feel like a real lady. "Courted" at home, met his family, among others. I am happy being with him. He's funny and smart. I like him.

But I know it's just it. I am just happy with his company. There was no spark or magic. Not like the movies.