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Universal 6 Card Spread

Card 1 (The Devil) : How you feel about yourself now  »

You are feeling that the temptation of a certain relationship, pastime or other form of pleasure is too hard to resist - its almost addictive. Question your motives, these sorts of situations aren't generally good news. You may also have rather low self esteem at this time and feel that there's not much hope for the future - don't doubt your abilities, try to be more positive. Think carefully, you can still change direction.

Card 2 (The Magician) : What you most want at this moment  »

What you most want is a new love in your life, and when The Magician appears, a new love affair or perhaps a rekindled affair is at hand. All things new are possible, the result is up to you - its all dependent on just how much you want it.

Card 3 (Wheel Of Fortune) : Your fears  »

You are in fear of everything turning for the worse for you, perhaps you are experiencing a run of bad luck. You have to trust that most of what we fear never happens and as The Wheel of Fortune turns downwards against you, the wheel will naturally turn upwards again and bring good fortune to you too. This difficult phase will pass.

Card 4 (Death) : What is going for you  »

A time of absolute endings and brand new beginnings, your life is going through a period of great transformation. Whilst it may be difficult or even painful you will pull through. You will be free for a brand new phase in your life.

Card 5 (The Chariot) : What is going against you  »

Watch out for being too arrogant or letting that ego of yours get over inflated, nobody likes a know it all. Watch that temper too, aggressive bullying behaviour will only set you back. If this doesn't sound like you, beware of someone like this that could set you back. This is a time of movement and change, and conflicts ending in victory, so don't give up.

Card 6 (Strength) : Outcome  »

Courage and self-belief is what you need to succeed. You may already feel overflowing with this, and if so there's no doubt you will achieve what you want with your career, finances and love life. If you are feeling negative, look inward for that strength and courage, you know you are capable of having self-belief and you'll reap great rewards.

This website just popped in my head. Creepy! O.o

100 Truths ek ek. Kase bored ako. Bat ba? Lol

1. Real name: ZYLA MONICA LESIGUES JAVIER

2. Nickname(s): Zyla/Zy

3. Zodiac sign: Leo

4. Male or female: Female

5. Elementary: Sto. Tomas Central School/St. Therese Child Development Center

6. Middle School: Sorry, we're in a third world country with no funds for that thing. :))

7. High School: St. Thomas Academy

8. Hair color: Black, with some auburn red highlights

9. Long or short: Long?

10. Loud or Quiet: Loud.

11. Sweats or Jeans: Jeans.

12. Phone or Camera: Phone.

13. Health freak: Nope.

14. Drink or Smoke?: I drink occasionally..and smoke occasionally. Lol

15. Do you have a crush on someone?: Who doesn't?

16. Eat or Drink: Drink

17. Piercings?: On ears.

18. Tattoos: uh-huh. :)

HAVE YOU EVER?

19. Been in an airplane: Yizz.

20. Been on a motorcycle: Yep.

21. Been in a car accident: ODK! Ayoko po!

22. Been in a fist fight: Yes. Haha

FIRSTS:

23. First piercing: When I was a baby.

24. First best friend: Angelica, my cousin.

25. First award: With honors. :) Prep!

26. First crush: CJ Ramos. HAHA

28. First big vacation: Leyte. 

LASTS:

29. Last person you talked to: Kris

30. Last person you texted: Mara

31. Last person you watched a movie with: UPAEMS. Andami namin eh. Isa-isahin ko?

32. Last food you ate: Burger steak.

33. Last movie you watched: Kimmy Dora 2. HAHA =)))

34. Last song you listened to: Call Me Maybe ~~~

35. Last thing you bought: I ordered a burger steak.

36. Last person you held hands with: Elbert. ="> (Waw! Lakas maka-PBB Teens! HAHA)

FAVES:

37. Food: Japanese!!!

38. Drinks: Water,Sprite/7UP

39. Clothing: shirt and shorts.

40. Books: Books by Paulo Coelho, John Green...Mooraming moorami!!!

41. Music: Pop rock, pop, R&B, Jazz, Classic, OPM, Praise songs. Hehe

42. Flower: Tulip. Lol

44. Movies: The Sorcerer's Apprentice! Mooraming mooraming mooorami!!! :))

45. Positions: Whutt?

46. Subjects: I'm dun. :P

IN 2011.....

47. kissed in the snow: Walang snow dito.

48. celebrated Halloween: Yep! First time. HAHA

49. had your heart broken: Ulol! Hehe

50. went over the minutes on your cell phone: Yes.

51. someone questioned your sexual orientation: NO! Haha

52. came out of the closet: No.

53. gotten pregnant: NO!

54. had an abortion: NOOOO!

55. done something you've regretted: No regrets :)

56. broke a promise: Yes?

57. hid a secret: Yep.

58. pretended to be happy: Yeah.

59.  met someone who changed your life: Yes.

60.  pretended to be sick: No.

61.  left the country: No.

62.  tried something you normally wouldn't try and liked it: Drinking coffee. But that's just recently.

63.  cried over the silliest thing: HAHAHAHA :)))

64.  ran a mile: Joined a fun-run :D

65.  went to the beach with your best friend(s): YES!

66.  stay single the whole year: Oo na! Letche! Lol

 

CURRENTLY:

67. Eating: None.

68. Drinking: Wala. :P

69. I'm about to reply: None

70. Listening to: The noise from outside. Hehe

71. Plans for today: Go to church again and eat sushi!!! :)))

72. Waiting for: Fridaaaaaay! :D

 

YOUR FUTURE:

73. Want kids?: Many! Many! Many!

74. Want to get married?: Now na! Lol

75. Careers in mind: Be a boss! Become a housewife. A mother. 

WHICH IS BETTER WITH A GIRL?

76. Lips or eyes: Eyes. Eyes. Pero pwede ring lips. Hahaha

77. Shorter or taller? : TALLER! :D

78. Romantic or spontaneous: BOTH.

79. Nice stomach or nice arms: Sige stomach nalang. Lol

80. Sensitive or loud: Sensitive. :)

81. Hook-up or relationship: Relationship.

82. Trouble-maker or hesitant: Good guys eh. So hesitant. Hehe :p

HAVE YOU EVER:

83. Lost glasses/contacts: Yes.

84. Ran away from home: Haha. For a week.

85. Hold a gun/knife for self defense: Nope.

86. Killed somebody: Gusto mo? Haha

87. Broken someone's heart: Haha. HS.

88. Been arrested: Nope.

89. Cried when someone died: Yep.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

90. Yourself: Sometimes :))

91. Miracles: Yup

92. Love at first sight: I don't know. But maybe.

93. Heaven: Yes

94. Santa Claus: Duh?

95. Sex on the first date: No..

96. Kiss on the first date: Pwede rin. Pero NO. HAHA

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

97. Is there one person you want to be with right now?: Hmmm. YES.

98. Are you seriously happy with where you are in life?: I'm better now. :)

99. Do you believe in God: YES.

100. Post as 100 truths and tag 15 people: Where's the Q? 

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Butterflies in stomach. Smile stuck on my face. Daydreaming. I never thought I could still be in cloud nine. Haha. The decision to go back to my old self really was a whirlwind turning point. I planned to hear mass and attend the recollection within our neighborhood with my cousin last Sunday. But that night, had some minor changes. My ultimate crush since HS who happened to be a close friend of mine, batchmate, ka-service and living one barrio away, invited me to have sundae last Sunday. I couldn't say no! It was a long time plan but never happened. Yeah. I ditched my cousin to go to mass with him. I still went to the recollection though. I just couldn't resist his charms so I went for the afternoon mass instead. Lol.

After two years, I finally went to confession! It was really relieving. It was also Father's Day that Sunday, I finally decided to be at peace with my tatay. Luckily at home, he was there. I rushed to him greeting him "Happy Father's Day Tatay, I love You!" just like the old times. I couldn't believe it. Like there's nothing happened between us. :) 

That day also, I had a promise treat with my Ninang and cousins. Unfortunately, Kuya Pao and Ninang were the only available. We tagged Lola P. Just had snacks in SM because I told them I was still to attend the mass at 5PM. Hehe. 

They say we're relatives. But I believe not so distant. I like this guy since third year high school! He had a girlfriend that time that's why I didn't interrupt. I didn't entertain suitors also that time. But I remember every simbang gabi, I go to the Parish instead in our chapel just to be with him. Haha. I also remember how he caresses my face or pinches my nose when he sees me. Grabeeee! Kilig! Hahahaha. But I don't know. He was just sweet? I know I told every one close to him that I really like him. His sister, that I am also really close. His friends. I just do not know if he was aware of how I feel for him. Up to this moment. Really.

So that afternoon, I texted him where will I meet him just to make sure everything is not bogus. Lol. Of course, same place in church. The mass was about to start when he told me he was there. No more seats. I didn't reserve one for him. Dyahe. Lol. After two years, I received communion. And I was with the guy I really like. I can't be more happier! =">

After the mass, the smile on my face was never erased. He still remembers that I punch whenever he teases me. But I didn't because he's too thin now. Hehe. His voice changed. Since Jollibee is just meters away from the church, we walked. And that was the start of me ready to burst in happiness! He's still sweet and touchy the way I wanted it. Haha. OMG! I really wanted to faint! HAHAHAHA.  He was trying to hold my hands but I couldn't give in because promise I will scream to my kakiligan! Hahaha. 

He's now a licensed ECE. Pogi parin. My Elbert. Hayayayayayay. God is super good! In an instant, I had my father back and this guy makes me inspired. I think I'll never gonna miss a Sunday mass again. Lol.  

Another roommate

Who's groggy? Yeah. ME. It's my fourth day in my new dorm and it's killing me! I am really sleepy! Good thing that my bosses aren't around. I think my dorm is haunted. I dunno. I just have a bad feeling about the room. Our unit is near the staircase and I had a very bad experience way back Clemente days. My roommate told me that she always wakes up at 2AM! When I heard of it, I knew from then that something isn't cool.

Gaaaah. As I type, I wish I could take a rest and sleep! Okay. So, when I moved in I only have my clothes and toiletries. I went to the dorm just to leave my things and went to SM North to buy other necessities. Of course, ALONE. I texted Kuya Kim on how I will be able to get there back and forth. Thanks to Kuya Kim! :D Haha. Almost all my stuff are pink! Hihi. I tried looking for a small smooth pillow but I failed. So I bought a not so smooth throw pillow. I also had this 20x30 pillow for hugging. I really don't use pillow for my head. What's necessary to me is the hugging type and the small one for my feet. Weird? :P

I also got a tall Disney Princesses hamper! Haha. I was hesitant at first but it's sooo adorable I just couldn't resist even it's so big for me! And I ate alone. I tried cheering up myself by ordering a big meal in KFC. Another epic fail! It's just not as simple as that. I cannot deny the fact that I am all alone by eating sumptuous meal. It becomes tasteless.

And when I came back, my roommate was already there. She's sooo beki and I really love her! I felt relieved knowing that I found a friend in her. But that night.. I first experienced the 2:32AM phenomenon. At first, I though it was just coincidence. Add the anxiety the pain in my mouth: Combo pains of impacted wisdom tooth, tonsillioths and hurting tooth from dental braces! I went to the medical clinic for a check up. The pain and difficulty in swallowing was due to that impaktong wisdom tooth. The doctor prescribed me antibiotics to be taken 3x a day for seven days. After office hours, I went straight to Mercury Drug to buy my medicine giving me a heart attack for the price of Php 700!!! OMG!!! I could have bought a hardbound copy of The Fault in Our Stars! I can't afford to be sick! That Tuesday I started going to mass and that morning of Wednesday of 2:32AM I started praying the rosary. These become a habit as 2:30AM phenomenon happens consistently

Torture it is! I just wanted a sound sleep! @_@ Last night, I was all alone. My roommate went home in Elbi. To calm myself, in the shower, I put the music on loudly playing party songs using my phone. As I wash myself and sing my heart out, suddenly, my cellphone turned off on its own. I can't be wrong. And it's fully charged! I quickly apologized to whoever that was and promised not to be noisy again. I hurriedly went out of the room and asked the caretaker what was the unit's history. He kept on denying there was no ghost but I can't be convinced. I just can't stay there alone! I tried sleeping early but I was uneasy. I went outside again and turned on the TV for me to be sleepy. Luckily Kuya Kim pitied me and kept me company til 12midnight. No matter how sleepy I was, I still woke up in the wee hour! Consistently! In my fright, I didn't attempt to look at the time! And when I woke up this morning, it was already 7AM!

Today marks the 18th death anniversary of my mom.