Lol

Who was I kidding?

Let's see until when

I'm not really good at hiding my feelings. I am in wrath right now. It's really absurd it is the person you love who you could hate the most.

I said to myself, I need to have some pride. I need to resist him just to teach him a lesson. And I am praying hard that I'll be able to do it successfully. Because he is my weakness and I am not sure of myself if I could really do it.

It's so unfair he'd treat me that way. And I tolerate him? I really don't know why of all people, why I cannot have control over him. I mean, at least control myself.

I become powerless. He becomes fabricating bitch. And to tell honestly, I never trusted him anyway. That's really really vague. How can you love someone you don't fully trust?! Like seriously???

This LDR thing truly consumes me! I thought I finally got used to it but then I realized... He is a bad investment. I think it's time for me to wake up with this "ideal" dream. We're really not going anywhere.

I won't let him do it to me again. I've had enough. I gave him everything that I could. And now, pride is all I have. I wouldn't waste it for him.

I'll be on hiatus. I need to have some time alone. Just offline maybe. Good thing S5 has blocking feature. It's really useful. Let's see what happens next. Because I am really tired. He didn't let me talk? Then he wouldn't let me talk to him ever again.